leave me aloneee

look. i know maybe i'm just hyper aware of everything and maybe this isnt such a big deal. to you. but ah.. you keep catching me off guard. and its kind of scary because i dont know what to do. i know i messed up but you said you forgave me already. so why do you still make me feel so guilty? ahgh. i cant tell you what to do because i dont know how to stop this other than just not seeing you. but that cant be helped. gah... sadlskdjsdlkj this shouldn't be a problem. so why cant i let it go. why do i always have to make things better?