then i wouldn't have ever known, probably. i guess. if i didnt freak out and have a panic attack at school, then i would have never known about my friend's condition, and my other friend's uncle's condition.... i dont know why they would, but they did make me feel alot better today. i didnt know that they could be so nice. well i did but not to me. i dont know. thanks guys (even though they cant see this). ssigh. i mean its not good that this is happenning to them, but im glad they told me. lol sigh. i cant believe they would put me through something so disturbing such as a belly dance, and then the silly things we said. lol its kind of like cynical jokes. lol those are pretty funny, but at the same time it's like ughh why. =(. sighhhh reminder to pray for them tonight. please please please God, let something good happen here.
Monday, February 28, 2011
i want to
make a small getaway for a week. that'd be a great birthday present. just be able to go anywhere and do anything for one week.
not yet?
if i could pick an age to die, it would be in my thirties - fourties. i think. i haven't really been there, so i don't know what that would be like. but if i could extend my life longer, i woud live up to my fourties.
who knows when i'm going to die? it could be tomorrow, it could be next year, or in my 70s.
i know, this sounds so morbid, talking about death and dying, but i cant seem to get it off my mind.
who knows when i'm going to die? it could be tomorrow, it could be next year, or in my 70s.
i know, this sounds so morbid, talking about death and dying, but i cant seem to get it off my mind.
duuuuunnnnnunnnn!
(that's the shark sound effect)
it seems that the closer i get to reaching my goal,
the riskier everything becomes......
and a whole lot scarier too.
but its so exciting
this feeling of....
intense.......
anticipation? (i dont know D= lack of a better word)
it seems that the closer i get to reaching my goal,
the riskier everything becomes......
and a whole lot scarier too.
but its so exciting
this feeling of....
intense.......
anticipation? (i dont know D= lack of a better word)
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Suspicion
I realized that I always look suspicious. lol i dont know why. It's not like i'm doing anything wrong or illegal, but there i am, looking suspicious. it could be just getting food from the fridge, or putting a bandaid on; but for some reason, i creep around LOL....... i know D= so strage. Maybe it's a subconsious thing i do.
hmmm.....like when i'm watching shows, blogging, typing up stuff on word, i don't like people watching what i'm watching or reading what i write... before it's done, so i turn the screen around, or i hide it when someone walks in on me. it's like that with art too. when i'm painting or drawing or doing something creative, i dont like it when people try to look at it, my work in the making (even though it isnt that great). maybe because its something personal and i feel that it's intruding. just a bit. but anyway, i realized that i do look suspicious on many occasions and i have no idea why. lol. it's so weirddddddd. maybe it's just because i'm not normal - like sometimes when i go grab something from a room and i leave the lights off, and then someone walks by and sees me that'd be awkward, itd be like " what are you doing in there?" " oh i'm just getting something" dalalala...i dont think i can do anything about that. maybe i'll just be more "normal", whatever that is.
hmmm.....like when i'm watching shows, blogging, typing up stuff on word, i don't like people watching what i'm watching or reading what i write... before it's done, so i turn the screen around, or i hide it when someone walks in on me. it's like that with art too. when i'm painting or drawing or doing something creative, i dont like it when people try to look at it, my work in the making (even though it isnt that great). maybe because its something personal and i feel that it's intruding. just a bit. but anyway, i realized that i do look suspicious on many occasions and i have no idea why. lol. it's so weirddddddd. maybe it's just because i'm not normal - like sometimes when i go grab something from a room and i leave the lights off, and then someone walks by and sees me that'd be awkward, itd be like " what are you doing in there?" " oh i'm just getting something" dalalala...i dont think i can do anything about that. maybe i'll just be more "normal", whatever that is.
GG Indeed
So today i found my agenda. =D
and then i found my guitar pin/peg thing....and i brought my guitar and pack of new strings to restring my guitar at church... but when i was tuning the string, it snapped again! So I have to go buy another pack of strings D= phooey.
and then i found my guitar pin/peg thing....and i brought my guitar and pack of new strings to restring my guitar at church... but when i was tuning the string, it snapped again! So I have to go buy another pack of strings D= phooey.
the curtain
lol my friend is so cute. the boy in the "dig your way out of those clouds" post. he's so funny. haah so hes like more asian/fob and i'm more westernized so there's like a slight language barrier. when i try to talk to him it takes a while to get my point across (although its usually nothing important), and i must repeat myself lots of times and try to incorporate some cantonese into the english (even though he tells me to just speak english) . but i have some urge to speak in cantonese with fobby people. lol i just cant help it (unless i really cant express myself in any language other than english). so yeah. lol he's so cuteee - not in a way that i like him (not really interested in younger guys), but like his personality is really cute hahahaa!! this is a random post .
anyway....interesting rehearsal today.
- i lost my eraser (hi-polymer!)
- lost my pencil (mechanical)
- found out the password to internet =D
- boreed
- someone lost his cool - not cool.
- lol my friend's so cute, he's new to my band but i think he's a cool guy ;)
- love my band, we're like a family. but we gotta chill more D= i always miss out. sigh
- so tiring. sitting there, doing nothing inbetween songs
- why are we behind a curtain
- the tv guy came, from omni 2. i have no idea what happened to him though (behind curtain)
here's the deal with the curtain.
we're "backstage" behind the curtain. the set is infront of the curtain. instead of having the band at the side, or under the stage (like a normal place would), we don't have a stage big enough for that. lol so we're behind the stage. and we have a curtain to separate us. so we can not see anything........... and we have no idea what's going on... outside of our band...... so we have one of our band leaders (we have two) cue us cauz only he can see the set, the director, and the band. the good thing is that noone will know who messed up when i mess up on the guitar, lol but when we come out to bow and stuff people are gonna be like "wtf, who the hell are they?" other than the inconvenience, and weirdness, it's all good.
anyway....interesting rehearsal today.
- i lost my eraser (hi-polymer!)
- lost my pencil (mechanical)
- found out the password to internet =D
- boreed
- someone lost his cool - not cool.
- lol my friend's so cute, he's new to my band but i think he's a cool guy ;)
- love my band, we're like a family. but we gotta chill more D= i always miss out. sigh
- so tiring. sitting there, doing nothing inbetween songs
- why are we behind a curtain
- the tv guy came, from omni 2. i have no idea what happened to him though (behind curtain)
here's the deal with the curtain.
we're "backstage" behind the curtain. the set is infront of the curtain. instead of having the band at the side, or under the stage (like a normal place would), we don't have a stage big enough for that. lol so we're behind the stage. and we have a curtain to separate us. so we can not see anything........... and we have no idea what's going on... outside of our band...... so we have one of our band leaders (we have two) cue us cauz only he can see the set, the director, and the band. the good thing is that noone will know who messed up when i mess up on the guitar, lol but when we come out to bow and stuff people are gonna be like "
Saturday, February 26, 2011
fingerstyle
ohh mann watching all these people on youtube (sungha jun, sandra bae) play guitar fingerstyle is so cool and awesome that it makes me want to learn too. ahahahhaa................... yeah...... maybe after i get down elec lol but yo look at them play. they incorporate chords + strum patterns and palm mutes you'd use in acoustic, and like lots of techniques you'd use in elec too. + the flexible use of their right hand fingers you'd see in classical guitar. its a combo of all the different guitars ALL IN ONE! classical + acoustic + electric = fingerstyle. lol i mean if you can truly master all three of those AND play fingerstyle, you're a true guitar master. that is my definition. its like they use all their fingers and each hand plays something different, like left hand does all the pressing of the strings and the right hand has to pluck them and wow . they switch so quickly. and how do you know what to play? and they play like lots of notes at the same time. how do you keep track of what you're playing wowzors. is it like piano? you can see all the chords and stuff? or notes? what the heckkkkkk so pro!
prostarss! - > new phase of adding "star" to the end of an adjective [something?] to make it a noun that ends with "star".
example:
pro + star = prostar = a prostar LOL
creep + star = a creepster = a creepstar see how a creepstar is one level higher than a creepster? you're a star of them creepsters!
peep + star = peeper = peepstar = a stelllar peeper
prostarss! - > new phase of adding "star" to the end of a
example:
pro + star = prostar = a prostar LOL
creep + star = a creepster = a creepstar see how a creepstar is one level higher than a creepster? you're a star of them creepsters!
peep + star = peeper = peepstar = a stelllar peeper
you can find everything online
watching youtube vids on how to play improv inside the box.........................
i just love how they go real slow at the beginning to teach you.. and then when they add the music, it's like they're on fireee LOL. so hard to catch up. but anyway learned something new =) perhaps if i watch many of these vids i'll get the essence..... lol and figure out how to input the stuff into real music...
i just love how they go real slow at the beginning to teach you.. and then when they add the music, it's like they're on fireee LOL. so hard to catch up. but anyway learned something new =) perhaps if i watch many of these vids i'll get the essence..... lol and figure out how to input the stuff into real music...
wake up in the morning....#2
feeling great.......................and then............ oh crap.
why?
because this week has been so busy, that i've forgotten that i have tons of things to do today:
- at rehearsal today (for musical), some tv people are coming to film us practising or something to help us advertise? something like that. so i have to dress and loook nice. here's the problem: i am not very fashionable LOL... and my dad's always like " do you need a mirror in your room?" and im always like "no, why? there's one in the washroom" and hes like " well... *looks at my hair*... i was just wondering if you needed one" =( what is that supposed to mean!! but i think after my short hair cut, i wont be having a hair problem anymore. so all that's left is the um clothing part. well..... hopefully...... i'll be behind the curtain (lol that stupid curtain, if i haven't explained it yet, i will sometime later) so they wont need to film me =D.
- also for rehearsal i need to have the lead guitar part (riffs + solo) ready for the song... that one song!@! or actually most songs need either me strumming or some random riff/solo...... which i have already.. its just that one song i need to work on.... and i have NO IDEA how to play random improv solos...... because.... there's this thing called "the box" where you're supposed to use to play your solos, and then later you're supposed to "break out" of the box.. and then become a pro-star soloist. haha but i cant even get IN the box right now, so im so baddd.
- i also have to restring my acoustic guitar...... which... i cant do until i either 1. buy the pin/peg thing or 2. go find the peg/pin
- catch up on chem (test soon!)
- catch up on physics (test soon!)
- get my snowboard waxed! i dont want to get stuck again =(
why?
because this week has been so busy, that i've forgotten that i have tons of things to do today:
- at rehearsal today (for musical), some tv people are coming to film us practising or something to help us advertise? something like that. so i have to dress and loook nice. here's the problem: i am not very fashionable LOL... and my dad's always like " do you need a mirror in your room?" and im always like "no, why? there's one in the washroom" and hes like " well... *looks at my hair*... i was just wondering if you needed one" =( what is that supposed to mean!! but i think after my short hair cut, i wont be having a hair problem anymore. so all that's left is the um clothing part. well..... hopefully...... i'll be behind the curtain (lol that stupid curtain, if i haven't explained it yet, i will sometime later) so they wont need to film me =D.
- also for rehearsal i need to have the lead guitar part (riffs + solo) ready for the song... that one song!@! or actually most songs need either me strumming or some random riff/solo...... which i have already.. its just that one song i need to work on.... and i have NO IDEA how to play random improv solos...... because.... there's this thing called "the box" where you're supposed to use to play your solos, and then later you're supposed to "break out" of the box.. and then become a pro-star soloist. haha but i cant even get IN the box right now, so im so baddd.
- i also have to restring my acoustic guitar...... which... i cant do until i either 1. buy the pin/peg thing or 2. go find the peg/pin
- catch up on chem (test soon!)
- catch up on physics (test soon!)
- get my snowboard waxed! i dont want to get stuck again =(
g stringg
the G string of my acoustic guitar broke. D= my friend snapped it lol. oops. anyway and now i lost the peg/pin thing that holds the string down...... lol.............and so theres a hole instead. sigh.........
after i took it home to restring, i was worried i didnt have extra strings at home, but i found a set =) .
and then i opened my guitar case and took it out.....to start replacing...
but there was a hole where the pin/peg thing is supposed to be. so how am i supposed to restring it now?
i gave my old crap guitar to a friend.... (beginner) so i cant take the pin/peg from that D= boooo
this means i'll have to wait until tomorrow (go to store) or sunday (go look for it) D= but i need it on sunday!! ahhhhhhhh
also: i left my agenda at church lol gg. i was so tired today . sigh...... when i'm tired, i behave in one of two ways:
- about to pass out mode, i cant do anything but try to stay awake
- i get a bit hyper and start saying weird things (crazy), and have no idea what i'm doing.....
sighhhhhhhhh. booooooo. looks like i cant do anything until sunday lol. hurray......
after i took it home to restring, i was worried i didnt have extra strings at home, but i found a set =) .
and then i opened my guitar case and took it out.....to start replacing...
but there was a hole where the pin/peg thing is supposed to be. so how am i supposed to restring it now?
i gave my old crap guitar to a friend.... (beginner) so i cant take the pin/peg from that D= boooo
this means i'll have to wait until tomorrow (go to store) or sunday (go look for it) D= but i need it on sunday!! ahhhhhhhh
also: i left my agenda at church lol gg. i was so tired today . sigh...... when i'm tired, i behave in one of two ways:
- about to pass out mode, i cant do anything but try to stay awake
- i get a bit hyper and start saying weird things (crazy), and have no idea what i'm doing.....
sighhhhhhhhh. booooooo. looks like i cant do anything until sunday lol. hurray......
Death to my Lock
Today I went snowboarding..... and I locked it up against the fence thingy before going inside to eat. The chalet is set up so that you can watch your stuff from the inside, while you eat. It was very cold and windy today. The wind blew my board off the fence, and then it fell inbetween the two horizontal fence part thingies.
looked like this at first...
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--l------l------l-\-\----l-----------
--l------l------l--\-\---l-----------
then like this:
--l------l------l-\-\-----l-----------
--l------l------l----\-\---l-----------
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okay, not exactly. it's really hard to draw, but the board was between the two racks.... and the edges of my board scraped against the fence =( and now its all scratched up and gross looking!
After dinner, i went out to get my board... but i couldn't unlock it =( it was stuck or something stupid like that. so i went inside to get it cut........... and now my lock is dead. it's served me for 3 years sigh; so sad.
it was very windy. and the snow was hard. so either you don't move, or you move really really fast.
first run: i couldn't move lol. cauz i wasn't used to having the board on yet. or something like that. i need to warm up; always important for me. i hate those ski places where they make you do the test on your FIRST run. so you can't even go practise and do the test later. you must do it asap. as soon as you put on your board, you have to get tested. why!? i can board so much better..... AFTER I get my first few runs down. takes time to get used to it you know! im not rich enough to go often =( . ughh. after a few runs though, it was great =) .
also: i need to get my board waxed and sharpened - get a tune up. (costs around 20+?)
sigh apparantly, you're supposed to do this once a season. i have done it 0 times out of 4 seasons so far, with this board. or you could wax it yourself - (waxing iron - 80$, wax - $$$, manual labour @_@)
snowboarding is expensive hobby #2. =( so sad. why! this is why i am broke. for the next five years, all my money will go towards university......... hurray...........i think these are my most expensive hobbies. ever. lol unless you add up years of piano... D= those are expensive too. and swimming lessons D= oh no. its not looking so good.........
looked like this at first...
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--l------l------l-\-\----l-----------
--l------l------l--\-\---l-----------
then like this:
--l------l------l-\-\-----l-----------
--l------l------l----\-\---l-----------
\ \
okay, not exactly. it's really hard to draw, but the board was between the two racks.... and the edges of my board scraped against the fence =( and now its all scratched up and gross looking!
After dinner, i went out to get my board... but i couldn't unlock it =( it was stuck or something stupid like that. so i went inside to get it cut........... and now my lock is dead. it's served me for 3 years sigh; so sad.
it was very windy. and the snow was hard. so either you don't move, or you move really really fast.
first run: i couldn't move lol. cauz i wasn't used to having the board on yet. or something like that. i need to warm up; always important for me. i hate those ski places where they make you do the test on your FIRST run. so you can't even go practise and do the test later. you must do it asap. as soon as you put on your board, you have to get tested. why!? i can board so much better..... AFTER I get my first few runs down. takes time to get used to it you know! im not rich enough to go often =( . ughh. after a few runs though, it was great =) .
also: i need to get my board waxed and sharpened - get a tune up. (costs around 20+?)
sigh apparantly, you're supposed to do this once a season. i have done it 0 times out of 4 seasons so far, with this board. or you could wax it yourself - (waxing iron - 80$, wax - $$$, manual labour @_@)
snowboarding is expensive hobby #2. =( so sad. why! this is why i am broke. for the next five years, all my money will go towards university......... hurray...........i think these are my most expensive hobbies. ever. lol unless you add up years of piano... D= those are expensive too. and swimming lessons D= oh no. its not looking so good.........
Thursday, February 24, 2011
They Finally Broke!
i don't know if i've blogged about this previously, but i only have one binder. all the rest of my "sheets" and notes are in folders. those folders with pockets. (y) they are called duotangs. but they have no foldable metal thingies that poke through the 3 hole punch on your papers. so i have almost one per course i'm taking. they've been very ... durable... until now. my math folder broke. lol i took it out of my bag to study for calc test tomorrow (why am i blogging) and it just fell apart. right then and there. i dont know if it was already broken from before, but it was always hanging by a little part. one side of the folder was still stuck to the other side .... attached by a small, but strong (or it was) fold in the folder. lol this is so confusing. how to explain. oh well i dont know. lol i think its time to sleep. but yeah i need a new math folder. and probably a new one for all my other folders too that are on the verge of breaking. lovely indeed. gotta hurry and pack my things for snowboarding tomorrow (yay for snow), and i cant find my gloves!@!@!
BCC/CC
okay, let's set this straight.
When sending an email, it is important to keep in mind who you are sending it to. take a loook at this chart.
as you go down the list, it gets more crucial that you know the following (comes after):
-one person
- multiple people who know each other
- multiple people who don't know each other
- multiple people who may or may not know each other, but a professional email
it is most important, when sending a professional email to multiple people that DO NOT know each other, that you know how to use bcc.
CC stands for carbon copy - similarly to putting everyone's emails in the "to" field, everyone who receives this email can see all the emails of everyone else who received the same email. the difference is that the people who the email is "cc-ed" to, are only included in the email because they are either mentioned in the email, or they are indirectly related to whatever the email is saying. The email is not addressed "to" them, but they receive a copy, so that they are kept up to date with what's going on.
BCC stands for blind carbon copy - everyone still receives the same email. the difference is that nobody in the bcc field can see the emails of anyone else in the bcc field. they can only see the people to whom the letter is addressed "to". also, the people who the email was sent to can not see the emails of those who have received a bcc of the email.
why am i bringing this up? because i got an email from someone from a professional organization, and they put all the email addresses of all the people they wanted to send the same email to all in the "to" box. this is obviously not ideal... because now all these strangers have my email. the bigger problem, is that the person who sent me this email labelled my email address (contacts list) with my real first and last name. great. now everyone who received the email has my email, and knows that it's mine, whoever i am. gg.
btw i found this out recently, cauz i wondered what cc and bcc meant. and i have never sent an email to a group of people who didn't know each other (like not part of a group project or something) or if i had to , i sent them individually ... good thing i found out early. but this is a big FYI for everyone else who doesnt know!
When sending an email, it is important to keep in mind who you are sending it to. take a loook at this chart.
as you go down the list, it gets more crucial that you know the following (comes after):
-one person
- multiple people who know each other
- multiple people who don't know each other
- multiple people who may or may not know each other, but a professional email
it is most important, when sending a professional email to multiple people that DO NOT know each other, that you know how to use bcc.
CC stands for carbon copy - similarly to putting everyone's emails in the "to" field, everyone who receives this email can see all the emails of everyone else who received the same email. the difference is that the people who the email is "cc-ed" to, are only included in the email because they are either mentioned in the email, or they are indirectly related to whatever the email is saying. The email is not addressed "to" them, but they receive a copy, so that they are kept up to date with what's going on.
BCC stands for blind carbon copy - everyone still receives the same email. the difference is that nobody in the bcc field can see the emails of anyone else in the bcc field. they can only see the people to whom the letter is addressed "to". also, the people who the email was sent to can not see the emails of those who have received a bcc of the email.
why am i bringing this up? because i got an email from someone from a professional organization, and they put all the email addresses of all the people they wanted to send the same email to all in the "to" box. this is obviously not ideal... because now all these strangers have my email. the bigger problem, is that the person who sent me this email labelled my email address (contacts list) with my real first and last name. great. now everyone who received the email has my email, and knows that it's mine, whoever i am. gg.
btw i found this out recently, cauz i wondered what cc and bcc meant. and i have never sent an email to a group of people who didn't know each other (like not part of a group project or something) or if i had to , i sent them individually ... good thing i found out early. but this is a big FYI for everyone else who doesnt know!
Law of Conservation of Stress
If it existed, it would
state that:
There is a fixed amount of stress per life time per person, that remains constant over time, or conserved over time. This means that the total amount of stress a person has can not be added to nor subtracted from. It can only be transferred to a different time in said person's life, or converted into other forms of stress.
example problem:
state that:
There is a fixed amount of stress per life time per person, that remains constant over time, or conserved over time. This means that the total amount of stress a person has can not be added to nor subtracted from. It can only be transferred to a different time in said person's life, or converted into other forms of stress.
example problem:
Impending Doom
8 courses
6 exams, all worth 30% at the end of the year. (all in one or two week's time)
eng is worth 15% + ISU 15%
i feel bad for the kids who took all this + earth and space, bio, or exercise science.
no exam for tech (i think/hope)
already did functions exam
like i said earlier, it's all going to rain down on us in june.
today my physics teacher already told us that we're screwed.
my english teacher told us that we've got to do an ISU too . great.
math teacher said we're not going to get into uni
this is supposed to help us relieve stress? more liike create it.
good job, principal + tdsb rules
6 exams, all worth 30% at the end of the year. (all in one or two week's time)
eng is worth 15% + ISU 15%
i feel bad for the kids who took all this + earth and space, bio, or exercise science.
no exam for tech (i think/hope)
already did functions exam
like i said earlier, it's all going to rain down on us in june.
today my physics teacher already told us that we're screwed.
my english teacher told us that we've got to do an ISU too . great.
math teacher said we're not going to get into uni
this is supposed to help us relieve stress? more liike create it.
good job, principal + tdsb rules
The Countdown Starts
I don't want to be 18.
I'm not ready to be an adult.
I don't want to grow up.....
ahhhhhhhhghhhhhhhhhhhhhh
but at the same time
I do. hahahahaahahahahah
but mostly don't.
5 days...
(i know, *shock* i just told you)
this is the first time that i didnt want to grow up. lol.... sigh @ the irony.
I'm not ready to be an adult.
I don't want to grow up.....
ahhhhhhhhghhhhhhhhhhhhhh
but at the same time
I do. hahahahaahahahahah
but mostly don't.
5 days...
(i know, *shock* i just told you)
this is the first time that i didnt want to grow up. lol.... sigh @ the irony.
Rain On Me
I feel like everything is being rained down on me.
so many things to do all at once.
so many people i want to reach out to........ to get to know better, to talk to..... or like meet interesting people. sigh........... and sometimes i think that i care too much about people .i dont know if thats a bad thing. i thought it was a good thing but it seems like maybe i'm going too far? there is only so much i can do as a person and well i can only pray for them after that. but why does it feel like everyone elses's problems are mine? why does it feel like i have to be the one to pull them out and help them? that if they don't suceed then it's also my fault because i couldn't help them? what if i'm the one that needs help? skldjalskdjskjd i can only hope that God is leading me and that i am listening.....
so many things to do all at once.
so many people i want to reach out to........ to get to know better, to talk to..... or like meet interesting people. sigh........... and sometimes i think that i care too much about people .i dont know if thats a bad thing. i thought it was a good thing but it seems like maybe i'm going too far? there is only so much i can do as a person and well i can only pray for them after that. but why does it feel like everyone elses's problems are mine? why does it feel like i have to be the one to pull them out and help them? that if they don't suceed then it's also my fault because i couldn't help them? what if i'm the one that needs help? skldjalskdjskjd i can only hope that God is leading me and that i am listening.....
I Don't Believe It
Who said life couldn't be exciting?
maybe it's just that we've been living too "safely", too "comfortably", that we arent willing to take risks.
taking risks is what makes life exciting. sometimes, i feel like i've been too absorbed with school work (you may laugh at that, but its true) that sometimes i neglect the fact that i'm here on earth because God made me, and because He has a purpose intended for me. me!
so here's what happened today, it is quite a long story. i shall do my best to shorten it but also make it interesting to read, so as not to bore you.
i woke up late. really late. i forgot to set my alarm clock, and my mom woke me up late (not her job, really).
rush rush rush rush --> got to school like 15 mins late (but good thing the teacher i have doesn't really care/mind)
mom yelled at me and said she'd beat me when i get home -> what great incentive for me to come home...
so i went to class, tried to put that behind me.......lalalala........did some calc....... i tried to find this person to talk to @ lunch because i think it's about time we had a nice chat. haha... am i creepy? but i couldn't find this person. so yeah. oh well. maybe tomorrow..... lol makes tomorrow an exciting day...
then like i forgot what happened in other classes/not relevant.........
after school dilemma: do i go home right away so i can work on calc? but my mom will beat me?
or do i go home after fellowship (so no extra calc time) but i dont get beat (cauz my dad will be home by then)?
i decided to go to fellowship. lol and avoid the beating. heheeh anyway God is more important than school =P
so... this is where it gets interesting on a few levels:
when i walked in, i saw this guy doing his physics lab - in the same room as fellowship!
and he's like an atheist ish kind of person. he doesn't believe in God, and doesn't believe that there's a purpose for life, or if there is, he doesnt know what it is. kind of like a lost sheep. but he's like really smart and pretty funny.
so today's topic was the fall of human kind, and how sin entered the world... and how we've ruined all our relationships - with each other, God, and nature (i'll probably post the notes sometime soon). a very interesting topic, and the teacher adviser/supervisor who was leading the bible study today also talked about critics of christianity and other religions, what they say and how they don't make sense or how they are incorrect etc. and i remember throughout the whole thing, with people asking questions, reading from Genesis 3, and discussion, i saw the guy listening in on our conversation (it was just him in the room with us). lol so awesome how God put him and us in the same room. very intereesting..... and now it's my turn to talk to him tomorrow or something, because i'm sure that hes going to want to talk to me about it (probably didnt expect to see me there) since i have class with him and he sits with me, and i guess this is my job lol or purpose for tomorrow........eeek so excited and nervous. what am i going to sayyyy will it be awkward, who cares if its awkward, time to let God shine and lead me.. this will also bring me closer to God, to see His work first hand, working through me. ahhhheeee!
tomorrow will be an eventful day. let's just hope it goes well, and if not. at least i've done what i need to do. right. please don't let me chicken out............
the spiritual battle is a very engaging and exciting one! but you can only take part in it if you're willing to, and if you let God guide you. i hope i'm doing it right.....ahhh.. so many people to talk to tomorrow......
maybe it's just that we've been living too "safely", too "comfortably", that we arent willing to take risks.
taking risks is what makes life exciting. sometimes, i feel like i've been too absorbed with school work (you may laugh at that, but its true) that sometimes i neglect the fact that i'm here on earth because God made me, and because He has a purpose intended for me. me!
so here's what happened today, it is quite a long story. i shall do my best to shorten it but also make it interesting to read, so as not to bore you.
i woke up late. really late. i forgot to set my alarm clock, and my mom woke me up late (not her job, really).
rush rush rush rush --> got to school like 15 mins late (but good thing the teacher i have doesn't really care/mind)
mom yelled at me and said she'd beat me when i get home -> what great incentive for me to come home...
so i went to class, tried to put that behind me.......lalalala........did some calc....... i tried to find this person to talk to @ lunch because i think it's about time we had a nice chat. haha... am i creepy? but i couldn't find this person. so yeah. oh well. maybe tomorrow..... lol makes tomorrow an exciting day...
then like i forgot what happened in other classes/not relevant.........
after school dilemma: do i go home right away so i can work on calc? but my mom will beat me?
or do i go home after fellowship (so no extra calc time) but i dont get beat (cauz my dad will be home by then)?
i decided to go to fellowship. lol and avoid the beating. heheeh anyway God is more important than school =P
so... this is where it gets interesting on a few levels:
when i walked in, i saw this guy doing his physics lab - in the same room as fellowship!
and he's like an atheist ish kind of person. he doesn't believe in God, and doesn't believe that there's a purpose for life, or if there is, he doesnt know what it is. kind of like a lost sheep. but he's like really smart and pretty funny.
so today's topic was the fall of human kind, and how sin entered the world... and how we've ruined all our relationships - with each other, God, and nature (i'll probably post the notes sometime soon). a very interesting topic, and the teacher adviser/supervisor who was leading the bible study today also talked about critics of christianity and other religions, what they say and how they don't make sense or how they are incorrect etc. and i remember throughout the whole thing, with people asking questions, reading from Genesis 3, and discussion, i saw the guy listening in on our conversation (it was just him in the room with us). lol so awesome how God put him and us in the same room. very intereesting..... and now it's my turn to talk to him tomorrow or something, because i'm sure that hes going to want to talk to me about it (probably didnt expect to see me there) since i have class with him and he sits with me, and i guess this is my job lol or purpose for tomorrow........eeek so excited and nervous. what am i going to sayyyy will it be awkward, who cares if its awkward, time to let God shine and lead me.. this will also bring me closer to God, to see His work first hand, working through me. ahhhheeee!
tomorrow will be an eventful day. let's just hope it goes well, and if not. at least i've done what i need to do. right. please don't let me chicken out............
the spiritual battle is a very engaging and exciting one! but you can only take part in it if you're willing to, and if you let God guide you. i hope i'm doing it right.....ahhh.. so many people to talk to tomorrow......
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
talk over coffee
i wish we could chat over a cup of coffee.
there are so many things i want to say to you
but at the same time, it's awkward.
so noone wants to open that box.
but i think after we get past the awkward part, it'll be good.
you feel me?
there are so many things i want to say to you
but at the same time, it's awkward.
so noone wants to open that box.
but i think after we get past the awkward part, it'll be good.
you feel me?
oh my back
gotta keep switching seating positions (on my chair) every so often so that my back won't hurt so muchhh
why can't today be tuesday?! or why cant my calc test be on monday.....
why can't today be tuesday?! or why cant my calc test be on monday.....
grow, branches, grow!
trying to learn:
calc
spanish
guitar solo
piano improv
programming C++
dahhhhhhhh
and then staying ontop of
physics
chem
eng
etc.
and
readingggggg my books!
snowboarding!
friendssss T________T poor friends.....
there's more impending things.... ughhh why.......
calc
spanish
guitar solo
piano improv
programming C++
dahhhhhhhh
and then staying ontop of
physics
chem
eng
etc.
and
readingggggg my books!
snowboarding!
friendssss T________T poor friends.....
there's more impending things.... ughhh why.......
urrggghhhh
listening/watching youtube vids on guitar soloing while doing calc makes me just want to scrap calc and pick up my guitar to jam along.............................................. donkkkk
Note to God
If I wrote a note to God
I would speak whats in my soul
I’d ask for all the hate to be swept away
For love to overflow
If I wrote a note to God
I’d pour my heart out on each page
I’d ask for war to end
For peace to mend this world
I’d say, I’d say, I’d say
Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road…… we’re on
If I wrote a note to God
I’d say please help us find our way
End all the bitterness
Put some tenderness in our hearts
And I’d say, I’d say, I’d say
Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we’re on
No, no no no
We can’t do this on our own
So
Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we’re on
No, no no no
We can’t do this on our own
So, So
If I wrote a note to God
Charice - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P4Xd435coD4
she's sooooo gooood.
I would speak whats in my soul
I’d ask for all the hate to be swept away
For love to overflow
If I wrote a note to God
I’d pour my heart out on each page
I’d ask for war to end
For peace to mend this world
I’d say, I’d say, I’d say
Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road…… we’re on
If I wrote a note to God
I’d say please help us find our way
End all the bitterness
Put some tenderness in our hearts
And I’d say, I’d say, I’d say
Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we’re on
No, no no no
We can’t do this on our own
So
Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven’t got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we’re on
No, no no no
We can’t do this on our own
So, So
If I wrote a note to God
Charice - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P4Xd435coD4
she's sooooo gooood.
I will survive
First I was afraid
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on
and so you're back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me
Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
you think I'd crumble
you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive
It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
Now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me
Gloria Gaynor
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DuRgQlfpD0U
love this version. such a fun song to sing. i wanna play some guitar riffs and jam along. that's probably exactly what i'm going to do... as soon as i do my calc D=
I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live
without you by my side
But I spent so many nights
thinking how you did me wrong
I grew strong
I learned how to carry on
and so you're back
from outer space
I just walked in to find you here
with that sad look upon your face
I should have changed my stupid lock
I should have made you leave your key
If I had known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me
Go on now go walk out the door
just turn around now
'cause you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
you think I'd crumble
you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
as long as i know how to love
I know I will stay alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive
It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart
kept trying hard to mend
the pieces of my broken heart
and I spent oh so many nights
just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
Now I hold my head up high
and you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person
still in love with you
and so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be free
now I'm saving all my loving
for someone who's loving me
Gloria Gaynor
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DuRgQlfpD0U
love this version. such a fun song to sing. i wanna play some guitar riffs and jam along. that's probably exactly what i'm going to do... as soon as i do my calc D=
Free Pizza
So today during french we were having speech arts competition in the library... so after i took attendance i just walked out. because.... it's really hot in the library and boring lol. and + i've already seen the speeches anyway (for my class). Anyway i went to the office to hand in the attendance sheet and then the office people were talking about how they would get free pizza if it didn't arrive in 15 mins. anyway, then i went to do math with some really smart math guy 8) in the halls lol then went back to the library to get my things =) great speeches. i saw a few. and i helped my friend with math! yay that i just learned from the smart math guy! double yay!
it's really all just about the food. free food. even better.
it's really all just about the food. free food. even better.
Orange Nougat
so i have a bag of a variety of nougat candy. i took out a random nougat to eat (i know, im still sick, bad me) and i got an orange nougat. so what's the problem? this piece of nougat inside is so tiny! it's smaller than the other pieces =( why is it so small. it's like half the size of a regular one!!!
; )
singing while vaccuuming is great especially when you're sick because i sound so gross hahahaha so the loud vaccuuming sound will cover it all up and i still get to sing ;) hurrays.
heheeeee....
when your friends comment on your hair cut infront of a cute guy...........
bang head against wall.
bang head against wall.
This is Weird
So.. I see you almost everywhere, a bit too much.... and thennnnn........... i hear so much about you....... and then we know the same people lol which is kind of weird because i've never spoken to you. like an actual conversation other than when you're like just kind of there or i am. lalalaa... i dont know whats goin on...... i think i missed the part where uh we introduce ourselves.... lol so its so awkward. . llalalaa.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Group Work
There are a few kinds of people when doing group work:
1. The one that has all the ideas, and forces their ideas on you.
2. The one that argues against the person with all the ideas, who refuses the ideas to be forced down them
3. The one that doesn't care and just does nothing.
4. The one that also doesn't care but does whatever needs to be done.
5. The person that automatically becomes the group leader because they're known to be the smart one.
6. The person that just takes charge because noone else is willing to.
7. The person that doesn't argue, but does everything that's needed and more.
8. The person that just complains about everything
9. The person that wants to change everything last minute
10. The person that does something totally different, and noone knows what to do about it.
Not all of them are always present in the group dynamic though.
I would have preferred if you were the one that did nothing and didn't care.
1. The one that has all the ideas, and forces their ideas on you.
2. The one that argues against the person with all the ideas, who refuses the ideas to be forced down them
3. The one that doesn't care and just does nothing.
4. The one that also doesn't care but does whatever needs to be done.
5. The person that automatically becomes the group leader because they're known to be the smart one.
6. The person that just takes charge because noone else is willing to.
7. The person that doesn't argue, but does everything that's needed and more.
8. The person that just complains about everything
9. The person that wants to change everything last minute
10. The person that does something totally different, and noone knows what to do about it.
Not all of them are always present in the group dynamic though.
I would have preferred if you were the one that did nothing and didn't care.
Get Your Act Together
Honestly, sometimes I just don't know how to keep myself from feeling bitter, angry, or annoyed. like realllly annoyed..
some people just don't know how to work in groups.
some people don't understand that when you send work in, that is your own part, your own contribution to the group, it's supposed to be your good copy - one that you're at least 90% sure that you did a good job on. something ready to hand in to the teacher. if it's a small grammar issue, thats fine. if theres a part where you're not sure if the information is correct, that's fine. BUT NOT THE WHOLEDAMN THING
*warning - rant*
How can you expect the rest of your group to go through your part? How can you expect the rest of your group to baby you, to check all your work, to edit everything, to add in things that should have been common sense to have in a script. honestly. if you only have random bits of dialogue, and no actions, or any footnotes to let the people you want to edit your work know whatthe hell is going on, HOW IS ANYONE SUPPOSED TO HELP YOU? 1. You shouldn't need help. 2. if you need help, tell us earlier. not 2 hours before my bedtime. 3. try to make some sense. it's like you just slopped a bunch of stuff together, and then crapped on top. 4. you leave no way to contact you. you better not be sleeping. ughhhh you're not even online, and you dont have a cell phone which is probably not really your fault, but you leave no number for us to reach you at... and you dont reply to emails. ugh. honestly. you call yourself a man? LOL okay sorry to bring that on . that is irrelevant. but still. ugh. way to leave everyone picking up your slack. noone wants to do that. we all have our own things to do. so stop being so selfish. do a good job. gosh. and people think you're smart. uahglskdjalskdjsalkdjaskldjaslkdjslakDJWLKJasldkjaslkdjsalkdjskljdklsj STOP THINKING HATEFUL THOUGHTS STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOP STOPPPPP
i still have to shower my dog (and myself)
calc test is actually on friday (phew) but i didnt get any hwk done today gughkajsdhkajsdhskj didnt get to use my "extra" day to study thanks to you. ugh
i have to find all the props for the stupid play. that i could have done earlier if i wasnt stuck editing yourcrap ass job.
ohhhhh meeee goodness................. all the things i wanted to do tonight - i cant now. because i have to do your crap. your part. the things YOU were responsible for. asldkadljsaldkjslkdjsdlkjsdlkjd i want to sleep. i want to grow branches out of my proteins.
=( why are you doing this to me?
some people just don't know how to work in groups.
some people don't understand that when you send work in, that is your own part, your own contribution to the group, it's supposed to be your good copy - one that you're at least 90% sure that you did a good job on. something ready to hand in to the teacher. if it's a small grammar issue, thats fine. if theres a part where you're not sure if the information is correct, that's fine. BUT NOT THE WHOLE
*warning - rant*
How can you expect the rest of your group to go through your part? How can you expect the rest of your group to baby you, to check all your work, to edit everything, to add in things that should have been common sense to have in a script. honestly. if you only have random bits of dialogue, and no actions, or any footnotes to let the people you want to edit your work know what
i still have to shower my dog (and myself)
calc test is actually on friday (phew) but i didnt get any hwk done today gughkajsdhkajsdhskj didnt get to use my "extra" day to study thanks to you. ugh
i have to find all the props for the stupid play. that i could have done earlier if i wasnt stuck editing your
ohhhhh meeee goodness................. all the things i wanted to do tonight - i cant now. because i have to do your crap. your part. the things YOU were responsible for. asldkadljsaldkjslkdjsdlkjsdlkjd i want to sleep. i want to grow branches out of my proteins.
=( why are you doing this to me?
Your Brain on Did You Know?
From economics.. today...
When you learn something new, your brain generates proteins.
Within 18 hours of learning that something new, your body needs to sleep inorder to allow your brain to make connections, and "grow" branches out of the protein.
When you naturally wake up, it means that your brain has finished making the connections - thus meaning you learned and have developped the connection! yay!
It takes 6 years for you to master a skill - so much that it becomes second nature.
When you learn something new, your brain generates proteins.
Within 18 hours of learning that something new, your body needs to sleep inorder to allow your brain to make connections, and "grow" branches out of the protein.
When you naturally wake up, it means that your brain has finished making the connections - thus meaning you learned and have developped the connection! yay!
It takes 6 years for you to master a skill - so much that it becomes second nature.
push it all aside
today while in tech class, i found out that i got accepted into mcmaster engineering for coop. lol i guess i really am more happy than worried. it doesnt matter if i dont get into waterloo or western now. because i have somewhere to go that i wanna be at. haha. think i'm still hoping to get into waterloo though... mmmm ...... when it comes down to it, we'll see =) i guess its best to have all options open for now. i think all universities send out each round of acceptances at the same time lol like per university, because you hear about people who get accepted into the same university around the same time, and then another university at another time, but everyone gets it at the same time. interesting to note. this means that if people get into waterloo engineering, and i dont, then i didnt make the first round. =P wait & see...... dahhgh. must pull up my marks.
Monday, February 21, 2011
derivatives
calc test on thursday
i'm not ready i'm not ready i'm not ready
on page 3 out of 7 pages of homework! each page is a different section/set of rules
ahhhhhh
why am i so slowwwwww....
i'm not ready i'm not ready i'm not ready
on page 3 out of 7 pages of homework! each page is a different section/set of rules
ahhhhhh
why am i so slowwwwww....
Getting There
I know where I need to be (general idea).
So how do I get there? and in so little time?
They say "Do your best, and let God do the rest", but I dont know where to start, how to start..... what..... to do........ God, where are you taking me?
need to have more faith
So how do I get there? and in so little time?
They say "Do your best, and let God do the rest", but I dont know where to start, how to start..... what..... to do........ God, where are you taking me?
need to have more faith
When The Rain Comes
When the rain comes it seems that everyone has gone away
When the night falls you wonder if you shouldn't find someplace
To run and hide
Escape the pain
But hiding's such a lonely thing to do
I can't stop the rain
From falling down on you again
I can't stop the rain
But I will hold you 'til it goes away
When the rain comes you blame it on the things that you have done
When the storm fades you know that rain must fall on everyone
Rest awhile
It'll be alright
No one loves you like I do
I can't stop the rain
From falling down on you again
I can't stop the rain
But I will hold you
I can't stop the rain
From falling down on you again
I can't stop the rain
But I will hold you til it goes away
Third Day
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EFXni5L4E3k
When the night falls you wonder if you shouldn't find someplace
To run and hide
Escape the pain
But hiding's such a lonely thing to do
I can't stop the rain
From falling down on you again
I can't stop the rain
But I will hold you 'til it goes away
When the rain comes you blame it on the things that you have done
When the storm fades you know that rain must fall on everyone
Rest awhile
It'll be alright
No one loves you like I do
I can't stop the rain
From falling down on you again
I can't stop the rain
But I will hold you
I can't stop the rain
From falling down on you again
I can't stop the rain
But I will hold you til it goes away
Third Day
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EFXni5L4E3k
im not that excited
sorry. i dont feel your enthusiasm. maybe it's caus i still dont trust you completely. something about you is off... i feel like i dont know the whole truth...
tell me why i cant believe your smile?
tell me why i cant believe your smile?
adventures of the travelling poo bin
so we've been storing my dog's poop in a plastic bin, just outside my house for convenience. every time she poos, we'd scoopp and bag it, tie a knot and throw it in the bin and cover with the lid. even after all my poo digging out of the ice expeditions, thats where all the poop went. Then every tuesday night we'd toss everything into the green bin to be taken away by the waste removal people.
Friday was a really windy day. It was so windy that when my whole family came home from long days and nights, the poo bin wasn't there any more. It had flown away. The only remainders we have of the bin is the lid, which got frozen to ice and is now stuck on my driveway lol how inconvenient (but its at the side, so phew). So... the question is..... where is the bin now? it's light purple so it'd be hard to miss.... but from the scouting my family has done, it isn't anywhere to be seen!
Here are some hypotheses as to what may have happened:
- it got sick of carrying poop so it decided to fly away with the wind
- squirrels took the bin because they thought the frozen poo were nuts that they could store and eat throughout the rest of the winter
- the bin is lying somewhere on someone's lawn. i am so sorry. D= we want our bin back too, and have no intentions of leaving waste on your lawn.
Friday was a really windy day. It was so windy that when my whole family came home from long days and nights, the poo bin wasn't there any more. It had flown away. The only remainders we have of the bin is the lid, which got frozen to ice and is now stuck on my driveway lol how inconvenient (but its at the side, so phew). So... the question is..... where is the bin now? it's light purple so it'd be hard to miss.... but from the scouting my family has done, it isn't anywhere to be seen!
Here are some hypotheses as to what may have happened:
- it got sick of carrying poop so it decided to fly away with the wind
- squirrels took the bin because they thought the frozen poo were nuts that they could store and eat throughout the rest of the winter
- the bin is lying somewhere on someone's lawn. i am so sorry. D= we want our bin back too, and have no intentions of leaving waste on your lawn.
bleeding finger
so my dad just cut his finger. he says the knife just nicked him , his pinky, poor dad. he's not very careful.
when they say you sweat and bleed into making food for people you love, i think he took it a bit too literally. haha
last time he made sliced potatoes with cheese in mushroom sauce (forgot actual dish name it's too late to be thinking), he used a new slicer thing he bought, fancy stuff. he thought he was too good to use the protection thing that prevents your hand from getting sliced... and well he sliced himself. sigh.....
then after i took forever trying to find the polysporin (because of headache and tireness and my usual suck at finding things), and after he bandaged himself, my mom came down .. and then shes like aahh what happened? annd after we told her he cut himself by accident shes like ahh my legs are going numb.. lol......
reminds me of the time where she almost cut her finger off, and she was just bleeding a bit, and she totally like went limp and started saying how she was going to faint haha so funny. but so sad. at the same time. so dramatic . what funny parents i have.
when they say you sweat and bleed into making food for people you love, i think he took it a bit too literally. haha
last time he made sliced potatoes with cheese in mushroom sauce (forgot actual dish name it's too late to be thinking), he used a new slicer thing he bought, fancy stuff. he thought he was too good to use the protection thing that prevents your hand from getting sliced... and well he sliced himself. sigh.....
then after i took forever trying to find the polysporin (because of headache and tireness and my usual suck at finding things), and after he bandaged himself, my mom came down .. and then shes like aahh what happened? annd after we told her he cut himself by accident shes like ahh my legs are going numb.. lol......
reminds me of the time where she almost cut her finger off, and she was just bleeding a bit, and she totally like went limp and started saying how she was going to faint haha so funny. but so sad. at the same time. so dramatic . what funny parents i have.
addicted
just say it. i'm addicted.
to blogging
to guitar
to music in general
to tv shows
to doing everything but the important stuff first
to being messy
to staying up late even though i'm dead tired
to waking up late
to getting to school late
to youtube
to discovering things
to thinking about everything
why can't i just go to sleep?
to blogging
to guitar
to music in general
to tv shows
to doing everything but the important stuff first
to being messy
to staying up late even though i'm dead tired
to waking up late
to getting to school late
to youtube
to discovering things
to thinking about everything
why can't i just go to sleep?
Sunday, February 20, 2011
here i am again
back to my guitar..........
gotta figure out how i'm going to improv some songs for the musical.. lol i just realized i have two and a half weeks left to learn and perfect improving for these songs.
lalalalaa with wet hair..... and a minor head ache..... and watching youtube vids for tips lol =D
gotta figure out how i'm going to improv some songs for the musical.. lol i just realized i have two and a half weeks left to learn and perfect improving for these songs.
lalalalaa with wet hair..... and a minor head ache..... and watching youtube vids for tips lol =D
@_@
massive headacheeeee
is my screen too bright? i turned it down
suddenly really tired. is it because my lights arent on?
my armmmm feels like i've slept on it or something but it wont wake up.! whyyy are you soreeeee and unresponsive??
is my screen too bright? i turned it down
suddenly really tired. is it because my lights arent on?
my armmmm feels like i've slept on it or something but it wont wake up.! whyyy are you soreeeee and unresponsive??
opportunities
is it just me? am i the only one who seems to jump up at opportunities? potential opportunities?
i know sometimes i dont because its like sketch or just weird... but..... there are so many opportunities out there............ not all of them are willing to wait for you to be ready. you just have to go and make the best of it.
what's holding you back?
- fear of change
- fear of the unknown
- fear of committment
?
i know sometimes i dont because its like sketch or just weird... but..... there are so many opportunities out there............ not all of them are willing to wait for you to be ready. you just have to go and make the best of it.
what's holding you back?
- fear of change
- fear of the unknown
- fear of committment
?
numb
my arm is numb! lifted weights sometime early last week, went snowboarding on thursday (later in the week), and then played guitar all day for two days in a row (end of the week). lol now there's like no circulation or something D= . boo.
today's show went pretty well, except that apparantly noone could hear me because i wasnt turned up loud enough =( . normally this would be okay because im just rythmn, but today i played a bit more lead guitar since the songs were slower.
im not complaining, but it seems that all my breaks are always really busy haha =) but its good. something to do that i enjoy. haah sometimes i like being busy, because it feels more productive. and at the end of the day, lots of experience gained. yay. maybe i'll level up hahaha. but it is so draining esp when im sick haha =P
update on sickness: =D getting better, just coughing now... and a bit of a runny nose, but its slowly going away. hurray.
today's show went pretty well, except that apparantly noone could hear me because i wasnt turned up loud enough =( . normally this would be okay because im just rythmn, but today i played a bit more lead guitar since the songs were slower.
im not complaining, but it seems that all my breaks are always really busy haha =) but its good. something to do that i enjoy. haah sometimes i like being busy, because it feels more productive. and at the end of the day, lots of experience gained. yay. maybe i'll level up hahaha. but it is so draining esp when im sick haha =P
update on sickness: =D getting better, just coughing now... and a bit of a runny nose, but its slowly going away. hurray.
bummmbummm
so.
my tongue is feeling less shrivelled up..
my skin is peeling and cracked =( i need cream
i lost my lip balm. i had like three. where did they all go? lips so chapped and dry...
my hair is splitty and wild
lallalalalalalalaaaaaa............. being sick really makes me look sick too hahahahaha..... so funny......
my tongue is feeling less shrivelled up..
my skin is peeling and cracked =( i need cream
i lost my lip balm. i had like three. where did they all go? lips so chapped and dry...
my hair is splitty and wild
lallalalalalalalaaaaaa............. being sick really makes me look sick too hahahahaha..... so funny......
Saturday, February 19, 2011
dreadful tomorrows
today was a long day. i pretty much spent all day practising for the musical thing we're doing...... sigh....
i realized that i'm getting closer and close to university....... closer to having to choose where to go.
i'm kind of hoping that i dont get accepted into too many, because then i wont have to choose where i go.
part of me wants to leave, part of me wants to stay, and if i leave, where to?
i put my first choice as waterloo, but the only thing good about going there is that they have the best program, and i know the city.. and it seems so optimal........ but i'd be so far away from the people at home....... and .. i dont know whats going to happen to the band. i dont want to leave, even though we've only been together for like a year and a half maybe, i dont want to leave.......... i feel like i've just begun to get to know everyone...and ii havent had enough of everyone yet.... =( i dont want to think about ittt i dont want to grow up....
second choice is mcmaster....... and well...... its not so bad, the work load wont be as crazy as waterloo... and i've been to the campus, it's pretty nice... and i know a few people there... i can come back more often to see people and maybe even stay in the band? ohhh.. i dont know....... =/ i actually wouldnt mind.. haha... im hoping i get accepted to only one: waterloo or mcmaster.. please dont let it be both. i dont want to choose.
western - i dont think i wanna go there anymore lol..... haha........ thats so funny........ not really...... i just know some people there but like meh......... lol (hehe)
ryerson - staying. it's great that i'm accepted already.. and i have the choice to stay.. lol and well that would mean staying in the band, and at home....... ugh.........i dont really want to stay. hhaa so contradictory.. but i dont want to go..... so maybe the best choice is mcmaster? or maybe its time to move on? but i dont want to...............
why is saying goodbye so hard?
why bother making friends in the first place then?
im so pessimistic today.
sometimes thats why i distance myself. because i dont want to say goodbye.
im not even good at making friends anymore. i think i just forgot how to communicate with people. i feel so sad. i think back and then i wonder how i could have been so outgoing and ... now i dont know what i am. an ugly inbetween...... maybe... i can still talk to people and continue a conversation and stuff.. but sometimes i just dont feel it. i dont know. or i don tknow what to say or do.....and im just stuck. maybe its all just a sorry excuse for me to just be alone........
i realized that i'm getting closer and close to university....... closer to having to choose where to go.
i'm kind of hoping that i dont get accepted into too many, because then i wont have to choose where i go.
part of me wants to leave, part of me wants to stay, and if i leave, where to?
i put my first choice as waterloo, but the only thing good about going there is that they have the best program, and i know the city.. and it seems so optimal........ but i'd be so far away from the people at home....... and .. i dont know whats going to happen to the band. i dont want to leave, even though we've only been together for like a year and a half maybe, i dont want to leave.......... i feel like i've just begun to get to know everyone...and ii havent had enough of everyone yet.... =( i dont want to think about ittt i dont want to grow up....
second choice is mcmaster....... and well...... its not so bad, the work load wont be as crazy as waterloo... and i've been to the campus, it's pretty nice... and i know a few people there... i can come back more often to see people and maybe even stay in the band? ohhh.. i dont know....... =/ i actually wouldnt mind.. haha... im hoping i get accepted to only one: waterloo or mcmaster.. please dont let it be both. i dont want to choose.
western - i dont think i wanna go there anymore lol..... haha........ thats so funny........ not really...... i just know some people there but like meh......... lol (hehe)
ryerson - staying. it's great that i'm accepted already.. and i have the choice to stay.. lol and well that would mean staying in the band, and at home....... ugh.........i dont really want to stay. hhaa so contradictory.. but i dont want to go..... so maybe the best choice is mcmaster? or maybe its time to move on? but i dont want to...............
why is saying goodbye so hard?
why bother making friends in the first place then?
im so pessimistic today.
sometimes thats why i distance myself. because i dont want to say goodbye.
im not even good at making friends anymore. i think i just forgot how to communicate with people. i feel so sad. i think back and then i wonder how i could have been so outgoing and ... now i dont know what i am. an ugly inbetween...... maybe... i can still talk to people and continue a conversation and stuff.. but sometimes i just dont feel it. i dont know. or i don tknow what to say or do.....and im just stuck. maybe its all just a sorry excuse for me to just be alone........
Friday, February 18, 2011
a whole new level
of sick.
i'm so glad im not going anywhere until... afternoon lol
i woke up with my tongue feeling like it dried up.
i really need to put some plants in my room to moisten the atmosphere.
i cant really taste anything
and when i eat, the food is harsh against my tongue =(
it's like put in mouth, scrape, scrape....ehhhhhh D=
i dont wanna eat anymore
but i'm so hungry
on the bright side......
im not on an meds now....
and my nose is feeling better
i'm so glad im not going anywhere until... afternoon lol
i woke up with my tongue feeling like it dried up.
i really need to put some plants in my room to moisten the atmosphere.
i cant really taste anything
and when i eat, the food is harsh against my tongue =(
it's like put in mouth, scrape, scrape....ehhhhhh D=
i dont wanna eat anymore
but i'm so hungry
on the bright side......
im not on an meds now....
and my nose is feeling better
Thursday, February 17, 2011
You May Say That I'm A Dreamer....
But I'm not the only one.......
Imagine
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JNl91QXws7o - Glee
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cBscFRlXTXk - Glee + lyrics
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-b7qaSxuZUg - John Lennon (you have to skip to about 10 seconds after for the music to start)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VM0Z75KEd_o - John Lennon (with lyrics)
Imagine
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JNl91QXws7o - Glee
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cBscFRlXTXk - Glee + lyrics
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-b7qaSxuZUg - John Lennon (you have to skip to about 10 seconds after for the music to start)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VM0Z75KEd_o - John Lennon (with lyrics)
Potential Conversations
So many words hang there.
Potential words.
Things that you or I could say.
But don't.
You always seem to catch me off guard,
I never know when you're there until I see you.
Always when I'm off in my own world...
I just don't know what to say.
I just cant seem to get a hold of those words.
Inside, I freeze and my eyes widen at the sight of you, when you look at me.
But outside, I keep a straight face... not knowing how to react.
A potential conversation..
The hard part is how to get started.
Then it may be awkward, but at least something's put out there.
Then.... who knows?
Potential words.
Things that you or I could say.
But don't.
You always seem to catch me off guard,
I never know when you're there until I see you.
Always when I'm off in my own world...
I just don't know what to say.
I just cant seem to get a hold of those words.
Inside, I freeze and my eyes widen at the sight of you, when you look at me.
But outside, I keep a straight face... not knowing how to react.
A potential conversation..
The hard part is how to get started.
Then it may be awkward, but at least something's put out there.
Then.... who knows?
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Guitar, Anyone?
How It All Started:
I feel so blessed to be able to play guitar. I first started playing acousitc about three to four years ago at church. I don't remember what made me want to start learning to play, but I did anyway. I remember learning a few chords from some church people, and then I bought a chord book that shows different finger positions for the same chord, and every chord. I do not remember anything...or much of the inbetween... from then to now..a splendid memory i have. I just remember that I played for my church, and then I joined a band that I am currently still in now. I remember once that someone related to me came to my house for dinner and he taught me to play a song on the classical guitar. Then I also remember lots of practising, and learning chords on my own, following tabs, and trying to play along with bands or recordings, or the radio. Now I mostly play for/at church and band (and of course, at home).
The Expensive Hobby:
The classical guitar I got belonged to my mother, who never played it, so I have no idea why she had one, and then she gave it to me. I don't really play on it too much, but once in a while it is fun to play some classical/country songs on it.
I got my first acousitic at a school garage sale, for $30 canadian. It's neck was slighty bent, so the low E string would always be out of tune. Nevertheless, I still used it to start learning guitar. I wasn't afraid to bang it up because it was so old, and if I ever popped the strings it was because I was careless with it (leaning it against my leg, and then it falls and hits a desk corner), but that was how I learned to restring a guitar. I also got a guitar strap so I could play and stand.
After a few months of using that guitar, my dad decided that I was ready for my own guitar (as in not as big a nub anymore) and he accompanied me to the music store. I picked one out that turned out to be slightly smaller than the regular sized ones, and the guy who was helping me with them at the music store (long and mcquade) told me that it was a good choice since i was small too (Simon Patrick). haha. Anyway, I also bought a chromatic tuner, a capo, and some picks. Then I was all set, and good to go.
I had my new acoustic guitar for about two to three years, when my dad saw an advertisement (also from long and mcquade) for a giant sale. My dad suggested me to get an electric guitar. Can you believe it? He has a cool side (i bet from all those old school rock songs he likes to listen to). But little did he know, that it would cost much more than just the price of an electric guitar. After we went to the store and picked out a guitar, I tried it out, liked it, and bought it (Ibanez SA series). Then, we realized that I would need something that would be able to produce and amplify my sound, as electric guitars aren't loud enough on their own (hence electric) and need to be plugged in. Awesome. So then we waited for another big sale, and I bought an amp (Line 6 Spider 4 - i did some research don't worry). I just needed something that had effects, and was durable, and loud enough with good sound quality. But little did we know (again), that I wouldn't need those effects on my amp - especially when I'm getting a pedal. Oh dear. So I did lots of research this time, and went to lots of different music stores and many sales and events. I bought one pedal after another, trying them out at home, but always returning them because I couldn't find one that was just right for me. I ended up buying the Line 6 POD XT Live. It came with a power adapter (most do not, and probably because it was used, and whoever sold it obviously didnt need the power adapter anymore)! Yay! Then we had to buy patch chords, so that I could use my gear.
And you wonder how those music stores make money - you buy one thing, you'll need this, this, and this, and by the way, bring your stuff in for repair and tune up every so often. no wonder they make a business (thats why i do the little things myself, or get them to do as many things as you need for the one free warranty set up)! Also, taking good care of all my equipment and gear and my babies have also been very helpful in avoiding spending lots of excess money that i do not have.
Being a musician can really make you broke, but I do not regret it at all. Thanks to my dad, for contributing financially, and my summer jobs, I was able to pay for all this stuff. So blessed. I remember when I bought one of the pedals (that i later returned), I also got free picks because the guy saw that i bought something expensive, and probably didnt want to punch in something worth two dollars, so he let me take them for free. =) what a nice guy lol. Also, thanks to my friend for buying me a guitar stand - very useful in getting me to practise more often, and gives me some place to stash my guitar inbetween shows and songs. =)
The Addiction:
At first, it was very difficult to get a grasp of how to position my left hand on the fret board, and how I was supposed to get comfortable with having a huge bulky thing infront of me. After lots of practise, I finally got my fingers accoustomed to callouses, and my body found a comfortable spot for the guitar to rest on/ hang against. There were so many people at my church who were patient with my questions and would show me cool strum patterns or give me neat tips to play better. After I grasped simple strumming patterns, I went into a frenzy learning different chords, major and minor. Then, I learned whatever new chords showed up on music that I wanted to play. On my acoustic, I would mostly strum and sometimes pluck - rythmn and filler.
After I got my electric, I started learning to play guitar licks, and solos. I also learned to play barre chords, and power chords. I enjoyed experimenting with different techniques and playing around with the whammy bar, and using the effects pedal. I'm still learning to shred faster, and play different styles and techniques. I am also trying to learn to improvise my own solos, which i have found the need to improve my knowledge of techniques and music rudiments & harmony (scales, chords progressions, etc). Although it has been increasingly difficult to find and make more time to practise at home, I am always pushed to improve when I play at church and at band. As I struggled to balance school work, friends, and practise, my band mates and other worship team members have been very supportive and patient with me.
His Part in My Journey:
I think it should probably be more like guitar is a part of my walk with God, because He was the one who got me started in the first place and guitarring has brought me closer to God. Learning to play guitar withchurch friends was really cool because they were so kind and patient with me, and also playing along with my church friends together to worship God is truly a wonderful experience. I am so glad that God has blessed me so much, giving me parents that support me both financially and through words of encouragement, church friends that help me to improve and play better, and bandmates who also help me to improve and play better. I have also been able to come closer to God through music because I can feel His presence when I play, and I feel like practising and improving my guitar skills for God is a motivation that I can never lose. With every step of the way, God has provided me with people who I can trust to give me good advice and tips, who push and help me to improve, and who show their love for God through loving me, as well as endless opportunities for me to learn new things and play for Him. If I hadn't been for God who gave me the opportunity and eagerness to learn to play guitar, to seek people out to practise with me, and parents who encourage and support my expensive hobby, I wouldn't be the person I am today - so I will use the gifts that God has blessed me with to praise Him. Thank you God & everyone. =)
1 Peter 4:7-11
7 The end of all things is near. Therefore be alert and of sober mind so that you may pray. 8 Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins. 9 Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. 10 Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms. 11 If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who speaks the very words of God. If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.
1 Timothy 4:11-14
11 Command and teach these things. 12 Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity. 13 Until I come, devote yourself to the public reading of Scripture, to preaching and to teaching. 14 Do not neglect your gift, which was given you through prophecy when the body of elders laid their hands on you.
Romans 12:1, 3-8
1 Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.
3 For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the faith God has distributed to each of you. 4 For just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, 5 so in Christ we, though many, form one body, and each member belongs to all the others. 6 We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us. If your gift is prophesying, then prophesy in accordance with your[a] faith; 7 if it is serving, then serve; if it is teaching, then teach; 8 if it is to encourage, then give encouragement; if it is giving, then give generously; if it is to lead,[b] do it diligently; if it is to show mercy, do it cheerfully.
I feel so blessed to be able to play guitar. I first started playing acousitc about three to four years ago at church. I don't remember what made me want to start learning to play, but I did anyway. I remember learning a few chords from some church people, and then I bought a chord book that shows different finger positions for the same chord, and every chord. I do not remember anything...or much of the inbetween... from then to now..a splendid memory i have. I just remember that I played for my church, and then I joined a band that I am currently still in now. I remember once that someone related to me came to my house for dinner and he taught me to play a song on the classical guitar. Then I also remember lots of practising, and learning chords on my own, following tabs, and trying to play along with bands or recordings, or the radio. Now I mostly play for/at church and band (and of course, at home).
The Expensive Hobby:
The classical guitar I got belonged to my mother, who never played it, so I have no idea why she had one, and then she gave it to me. I don't really play on it too much, but once in a while it is fun to play some classical/country songs on it.
I got my first acousitic at a school garage sale, for $30 canadian. It's neck was slighty bent, so the low E string would always be out of tune. Nevertheless, I still used it to start learning guitar. I wasn't afraid to bang it up because it was so old, and if I ever popped the strings it was because I was careless with it (leaning it against my leg, and then it falls and hits a desk corner), but that was how I learned to restring a guitar. I also got a guitar strap so I could play and stand.
After a few months of using that guitar, my dad decided that I was ready for my own guitar (as in not as big a nub anymore) and he accompanied me to the music store. I picked one out that turned out to be slightly smaller than the regular sized ones, and the guy who was helping me with them at the music store (long and mcquade) told me that it was a good choice since i was small too (Simon Patrick). haha. Anyway, I also bought a chromatic tuner, a capo, and some picks. Then I was all set, and good to go.
I had my new acoustic guitar for about two to three years, when my dad saw an advertisement (also from long and mcquade) for a giant sale. My dad suggested me to get an electric guitar. Can you believe it? He has a cool side (i bet from all those old school rock songs he likes to listen to). But little did he know, that it would cost much more than just the price of an electric guitar. After we went to the store and picked out a guitar, I tried it out, liked it, and bought it (Ibanez SA series). Then, we realized that I would need something that would be able to produce and amplify my sound, as electric guitars aren't loud enough on their own (hence electric) and need to be plugged in. Awesome. So then we waited for another big sale, and I bought an amp (Line 6 Spider 4 - i did some research don't worry). I just needed something that had effects, and was durable, and loud enough with good sound quality. But little did we know (again), that I wouldn't need those effects on my amp - especially when I'm getting a pedal. Oh dear. So I did lots of research this time, and went to lots of different music stores and many sales and events. I bought one pedal after another, trying them out at home, but always returning them because I couldn't find one that was just right for me. I ended up buying the Line 6 POD XT Live. It came with a power adapter (most do not, and probably because it was used, and whoever sold it obviously didnt need the power adapter anymore)! Yay! Then we had to buy patch chords, so that I could use my gear.
And you wonder how those music stores make money - you buy one thing, you'll need this, this, and this, and by the way, bring your stuff in for repair and tune up every so often. no wonder they make a business (thats why i do the little things myself, or get them to do as many things as you need for the one free warranty set up)! Also, taking good care of all my equipment and gear and my babies have also been very helpful in avoiding spending lots of excess money that i do not have.
Being a musician can really make you broke, but I do not regret it at all. Thanks to my dad, for contributing financially, and my summer jobs, I was able to pay for all this stuff. So blessed. I remember when I bought one of the pedals (that i later returned), I also got free picks because the guy saw that i bought something expensive, and probably didnt want to punch in something worth two dollars, so he let me take them for free. =) what a nice guy lol. Also, thanks to my friend for buying me a guitar stand - very useful in getting me to practise more often, and gives me some place to stash my guitar inbetween shows and songs. =)
The Addiction:
At first, it was very difficult to get a grasp of how to position my left hand on the fret board, and how I was supposed to get comfortable with having a huge bulky thing infront of me. After lots of practise, I finally got my fingers accoustomed to callouses, and my body found a comfortable spot for the guitar to rest on/ hang against. There were so many people at my church who were patient with my questions and would show me cool strum patterns or give me neat tips to play better. After I grasped simple strumming patterns, I went into a frenzy learning different chords, major and minor. Then, I learned whatever new chords showed up on music that I wanted to play. On my acoustic, I would mostly strum and sometimes pluck - rythmn and filler.
After I got my electric, I started learning to play guitar licks, and solos. I also learned to play barre chords, and power chords. I enjoyed experimenting with different techniques and playing around with the whammy bar, and using the effects pedal. I'm still learning to shred faster, and play different styles and techniques. I am also trying to learn to improvise my own solos, which i have found the need to improve my knowledge of techniques and music rudiments & harmony (scales, chords progressions, etc). Although it has been increasingly difficult to find and make more time to practise at home, I am always pushed to improve when I play at church and at band. As I struggled to balance school work, friends, and practise, my band mates and other worship team members have been very supportive and patient with me.
His Part in My Journey:
I think it should probably be more like guitar is a part of my walk with God, because He was the one who got me started in the first place and guitarring has brought me closer to God. Learning to play guitar withchurch friends was really cool because they were so kind and patient with me, and also playing along with my church friends together to worship God is truly a wonderful experience. I am so glad that God has blessed me so much, giving me parents that support me both financially and through words of encouragement, church friends that help me to improve and play better, and bandmates who also help me to improve and play better. I have also been able to come closer to God through music because I can feel His presence when I play, and I feel like practising and improving my guitar skills for God is a motivation that I can never lose. With every step of the way, God has provided me with people who I can trust to give me good advice and tips, who push and help me to improve, and who show their love for God through loving me, as well as endless opportunities for me to learn new things and play for Him. If I hadn't been for God who gave me the opportunity and eagerness to learn to play guitar, to seek people out to practise with me, and parents who encourage and support my expensive hobby, I wouldn't be the person I am today - so I will use the gifts that God has blessed me with to praise Him. Thank you God & everyone. =)
1 Peter 4:7-11
7 The end of all things is near. Therefore be alert and of sober mind so that you may pray. 8 Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins. 9 Offer hospitality to one another without grumbling. 10 Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms. 11 If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who speaks the very words of God. If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.
1 Timothy 4:11-14
11 Command and teach these things. 12 Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity. 13 Until I come, devote yourself to the public reading of Scripture, to preaching and to teaching. 14 Do not neglect your gift, which was given you through prophecy when the body of elders laid their hands on you.
Romans 12:1, 3-8
1 Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship.
3 For by the grace given me I say to every one of you: Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgment, in accordance with the faith God has distributed to each of you. 4 For just as each of us has one body with many members, and these members do not all have the same function, 5 so in Christ we, though many, form one body, and each member belongs to all the others. 6 We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us. If your gift is prophesying, then prophesy in accordance with your[a] faith; 7 if it is serving, then serve; if it is teaching, then teach; 8 if it is to encourage, then give encouragement; if it is giving, then give generously; if it is to lead,[b] do it diligently; if it is to show mercy, do it cheerfully.
Talk Into the Mic, Not On It
So I'm watching people sing, bands perform, etc. I've noticed that some of the singers sing on the mic.. like, their mouths are literally touching the mic..... and not by accident. How does that work? Don't the words they sing get muffled because of the mic foam? Don't even get me started on how dirty those mic foams are... and how many other people have sung on the mics/mic foams before you? Think about how many germs there are, how dirty the mics become, and how easily you could get sick. The mic will be able to "hear" you and record your sound as long as you speak or sing properly into it.
There are two main types of mics (in terms of how you talk into it):
Omnidirectional and Unidirectional (there are also other ones, but they're sort of a combination, or for specific things)
From the word omnidirectional, you can pretty much figure out what it means. Omni means all, so omnidirectional means it will receive sound waves from all directions. You can talk into the mic from almost any angle, as long as it is directed towards the mic (obviously the round part, not the handle). Although some may think that these mics are better, they also have a negative side effect - it will also receive unwanted sounds. Since the mic will receive soundwaves or signals from many directions, any loud noises directed at the mic will also be projected into the speakers or amplifiers. So beware!
From the word unidirectional, uni means one. Hence, it only receives sound from one direction - usually the top of the mic. This is why it is hard to hear someone even if they are using a mic, if their mic is a unidirectional mic, and they are not speaking directly into the top of the mic. If you try and speak into the mic from an angle, or into the sides, your sound will not be received as clearly, and you will end up being really quiet. No soundboard/mixer will be able to turn you up without allowing feedback. I am not an expert techie, but that is what I learned from doing AV (audio visual) work.
Anyway, I think that because I'm sick it's been causing me to become really paranoid and ultra sensitive to germy things. D=
There are two main types of mics (in terms of how you talk into it):
Omnidirectional and Unidirectional (there are also other ones, but they're sort of a combination, or for specific things)
From the word omnidirectional, you can pretty much figure out what it means. Omni means all, so omnidirectional means it will receive sound waves from all directions. You can talk into the mic from almost any angle, as long as it is directed towards the mic (obviously the round part, not the handle). Although some may think that these mics are better, they also have a negative side effect - it will also receive unwanted sounds. Since the mic will receive soundwaves or signals from many directions, any loud noises directed at the mic will also be projected into the speakers or amplifiers. So beware!
From the word unidirectional, uni means one. Hence, it only receives sound from one direction - usually the top of the mic. This is why it is hard to hear someone even if they are using a mic, if their mic is a unidirectional mic, and they are not speaking directly into the top of the mic. If you try and speak into the mic from an angle, or into the sides, your sound will not be received as clearly, and you will end up being really quiet. No soundboard/mixer will be able to turn you up without allowing feedback. I am not an expert techie, but that is what I learned from doing AV (audio visual) work.
Anyway, I think that because I'm sick it's been causing me to become really paranoid and ultra sensitive to germy things. D=
Your Prescription?
I just found some Buckley's complete liquid gels PLUS mucous relief. lol lovely.....
i just realized that i have enough drugs for cough, cold, and flu to prescribe myself the right one depending on my symptoms.
Gels:
Advil Cold and Sinus
Buckley's Complete Plus Mucous Relief
Benilyn Day & Night Cold and Flu
Nin Jom Pei Pa Koa (cough syrup)
Lozenges:
Life brand
Strepsils
Halls
Herbon Rockhoppers
Other:
Vicks Vapour Rub (it's too gross for me to use, personally)
I also have lots of stuff for allergies...
Claritin
Reactine
Aerius (although, i've heard that once you use this, no other brand will work)
Benedryl
the only thing i have to be careful of, is to not take the different drugs together, incase of overdose and poisoning.
i just realized that i have enough drugs for cough, cold, and flu to prescribe myself the right one depending on my symptoms.
Gels:
Advil Cold and Sinus
Buckley's Complete Plus Mucous Relief
Benilyn Day & Night Cold and Flu
Nin Jom Pei Pa Koa (cough syrup)
Lozenges:
Life brand
Strepsils
Halls
Herbon Rockhoppers
Other:
Vicks Vapour Rub (it's too gross for me to use, personally)
I also have lots of stuff for allergies...
Claritin
Reactine
Aerius (although, i've heard that once you use this, no other brand will work)
Benedryl
the only thing i have to be careful of, is to not take the different drugs together, incase of overdose and poisoning.
Sing
I never thought Glee would sing My Chemical Romance. Here it is: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hTgnDLWeeaM
The music video really confuses me. I don't get it..... how does the song have anything to do with what they're doing? lol or did they just really want to act out this plot, and just happened to have a new single they needed a video for? =P
Anyway, I still can't sing. I'm still sick. gahh.... Today I decided to eat a candy, one of those chinese new year ones. What I didn't know was, that there was some weird chinese dried prune thing inside. lol it helped my throat. talk about good candy (this one's actually good for you - in a way).
btw. I started listening to MCR like 6 years ago....... okay.... just sayin'..
glee...good job =)
I've always wondered how Gerard can do his rocky screams and then sing..... without hurting his throat.... how can you make such a husky sounding throaty scream? I know diaphragm and all but like what the. how does one scream with hoarseness with the diaphragm? btw his red hair looks really weird on him..
The music video really confuses me. I don't get it..... how does the song have anything to do with what they're doing? lol or did they just really want to act out this plot, and just happened to have a new single they needed a video for? =P
Anyway, I still can't sing. I'm still sick. gahh.... Today I decided to eat a candy, one of those chinese new year ones. What I didn't know was, that there was some weird chinese dried prune thing inside. lol it helped my throat. talk about good candy (this one's actually good for you - in a way).
btw. I started listening to MCR like 6 years ago....... okay.... just sayin'..
glee...good job =)
I've always wondered how Gerard can do his rocky screams and then sing..... without hurting his throat.... how can you make such a husky sounding throaty scream? I know diaphragm and all but like what the. how does one scream with hoarseness with the diaphragm? btw his red hair looks really weird on him..
Delirious? or Just Crazy?
Being sick changes you. It makes you shy away from other people, to avoid spreading germs (if you're a germophobe) and it can also affect the things you say, the things you do, as well as the way you perceive things or think.
Today, I went to school drugged with Benilyn (only took one). I decided to switch because the Advil Cold and Sinus doesn't have anything (on the box) that will help alleviate my sore throat.
Things I say: to a "sane" person
I had calculus, and after the lesson my friend and I didn't really feel like doing any work, so we just talked. We talked about how she was strong and wouldn't get sick from me, while i told her to stop touching my things so she wouldn't catch my germs. And then she talked about how it was all in my head and i wouldnt have gotten sick if i didnt track germs in my head. She talked about how if i just thought i wouldnt get sick, then i wouldnt get sick. If i thought i would get sick, then i would. i dont think it works that way. you touch germs, you touch your eye/mouth/nose, you get sick. that's how it is. but nope she refuses to believe me. Anyway, then she remembered that she forgot to get a form signed, for courses next year. since we're in our last year, we dont need to choose courses, so i just told her that she could sign it in place of her parents. lol my reason being that we're a product of our parents, so technically, we are our parents (totally makes no sense) but yeah. anyway, she told me i was either really stupid, or just really sick. and she chose to believe the latter. how nice.
Things you say #2: Conversations
I was going home with my mom, caus she decided to pick me up. Wednesday is a walking day for me (so is monday and friday) but she came anyway to pick me up (and then later commented on how i was getting fatter and i should sit less. thanks for helping, mom). That is not the point. So... we were turning at a green light, but there was a pedestrian crossing... so we had to wait for him/her to pass (him/her because im not sure what gender that person was). The guy/girl... (lets just say "kid") took forever to cross, and was really slow. wow. not sure what the kid's problem was... lol... so my mom was like, "that kid walks so slowly, i'm going to get out and spank (him/her - in chinese, she just said "that person - genderless"). So I said, "okay. i'll drive, you go spank him (again, not to be sexist, i used the genderless pronoun for him). lol and for the rest of the ride home my mom and i just thought of ways to spank the kid. lol. so weird. my mom suggested getting a fly swat to wack 'em, so that we didnt have to open the door and get out - just open the window. lol then we just discussed who was gonna do what next time..
Things you do: in class
I couldn't help but follow the flight pattern of a fly... in physics. I also realized that I make a lot of weird sounds in class... lol...
Way you perceive things: in the streets
I was watching the count down at an intersection, for pedestrian crossing. I saw it counting fown from 24, and then after it got to 17, it went back up to 18, and then back down to 15.... then when it got to 9, it went to ten, and then to seven.... am i seeing things?
The way you think: in class...
I couldn't follow anything today.... students teaching, i was watching their lips move, and hearing their words, but then i got caught in a swirl of meter sticks and in the next moment i was staring at a blank handout with no idea of how to fill it out.
Dictionary Definition (from dictionary.com):
Delirious: adjective:
1. Pathology . affected with or characteristic of delirium.
2. wild with excitement, enthusiasm, etc.: She was delirious with joy at the news.
Crazy: adjective:
So verdict: Am i delirious because of the drugs and sickness? or just crazy?
Today, I went to school drugged with Benilyn (only took one). I decided to switch because the Advil Cold and Sinus doesn't have anything (on the box) that will help alleviate my sore throat.
Things I say: to a "sane" person
I had calculus, and after the lesson my friend and I didn't really feel like doing any work, so we just talked. We talked about how she was strong and wouldn't get sick from me, while i told her to stop touching my things so she wouldn't catch my germs. And then she talked about how it was all in my head and i wouldnt have gotten sick if i didnt track germs in my head. She talked about how if i just thought i wouldnt get sick, then i wouldnt get sick. If i thought i would get sick, then i would. i dont think it works that way. you touch germs, you touch your eye/mouth/nose, you get sick. that's how it is. but nope she refuses to believe me. Anyway, then she remembered that she forgot to get a form signed, for courses next year. since we're in our last year, we dont need to choose courses, so i just told her that she could sign it in place of her parents. lol my reason being that we're a product of our parents, so technically, we are our parents (totally makes no sense) but yeah. anyway, she told me i was either really stupid, or just really sick. and she chose to believe the latter. how nice.
Things you say #2: Conversations
I was going home with my mom, caus she decided to pick me up. Wednesday is a walking day for me (so is monday and friday) but she came anyway to pick me up (and then later commented on how i was getting fatter and i should sit less. thanks for helping, mom). That is not the point. So... we were turning at a green light, but there was a pedestrian crossing... so we had to wait for him/her to pass (him/her because im not sure what gender that person was). The guy/girl... (lets just say "kid") took forever to cross, and was really slow. wow. not sure what the kid's problem was... lol... so my mom was like, "that kid walks so slowly, i'm going to get out and spank (him/her - in chinese, she just said "that person - genderless"). So I said, "okay. i'll drive, you go spank him (again, not to be sexist, i used the genderless pronoun for him). lol and for the rest of the ride home my mom and i just thought of ways to spank the kid. lol. so weird. my mom suggested getting a fly swat to wack 'em, so that we didnt have to open the door and get out - just open the window. lol then we just discussed who was gonna do what next time..
Things you do: in class
I couldn't help but follow the flight pattern of a fly... in physics. I also realized that I make a lot of weird sounds in class... lol...
Way you perceive things: in the streets
I was watching the count down at an intersection, for pedestrian crossing. I saw it counting fown from 24, and then after it got to 17, it went back up to 18, and then back down to 15.... then when it got to 9, it went to ten, and then to seven.... am i seeing things?
The way you think: in class...
I couldn't follow anything today.... students teaching, i was watching their lips move, and hearing their words, but then i got caught in a swirl of meter sticks and in the next moment i was staring at a blank handout with no idea of how to fill it out.
Dictionary Definition (from dictionary.com):
Delirious: adjective:
1. Pathology . affected with or characteristic of delirium.
2. wild with excitement, enthusiasm, etc.: She was delirious with joy at the news.
Crazy: adjective:
1. mentally deranged; demented; insane.
2. senseless; impractical; totally unsound: a crazy scheme.
5. Informal . intensely anxious or eager; impatient: I'm crazy to try those new skis.
7. Slang . wonderful; excellent; perfect: That's crazy, man, crazy.
8. likely to break or fall to pieces.
9. weak, infirm, or sickly.
10. having an unusual, unexpected, or random quality, behavior, result, pattern, etc.: a crazy reel that spins in either direction.
So verdict: Am i delirious because of the drugs and sickness? or just crazy?
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
ohhhhh the horror
sooo i just ate a whole clove of garlic. i just put it in my mouth and chewed it
and then swallowed it down with water. and i felt fine...... until i sat down.
then i started to feel really wrong.. and i started to salivate....
and then i went to the washroom....... ready to puke.....
but nothing came out..... phew...............
after a while of just sitting on the bathroom floor (dirty eww)
my stomach stopped feeling too painful (pain lessened)
and then now i just have to poo =)
my nose is really clear now, mouth and throat still stinging from garlic, but its all goood.......
i just hope i wake up better tmr.
from now on : take smaller doses of garlic at a time.
and then swallowed it down with water. and i felt fine...... until i sat down.
then i started to feel really wrong.. and i started to salivate....
and then i went to the washroom....... ready to puke.....
but nothing came out..... phew...............
after a while of just sitting on the bathroom floor (dirty eww)
my stomach stopped feeling too painful (pain lessened)
and then now i just have to poo =)
my nose is really clear now, mouth and throat still stinging from garlic, but its all goood.......
i just hope i wake up better tmr.
from now on : take smaller doses of garlic at a time.
Splittyyy
ahh. my hair is so sad. =(
when i look at the ends, they scream out to me. ='(
i have so many split ends, it hurts. it's like its splitting me too!
dahhhhhhh
should i cut it myself? or get it professionally done? cauz last time i got a professional to do it.. i came back with like a broom for hair =( . my hair was all straight all around, and that was just it. i looked like a broom. or a mop. seriously! so i ended up layering it myself. but i'm not a professional so i probably damaged my hair too. not that the "professional" i went to really did much for my split ends. sigh. why are you so bad!
i just found a strand of hair that has been split 6 times!! oh the horror
my hair is not really black. it's more of a really dark brown, and then at the tips where everything is sad and damaged, it's a light brown. boooo =( why is it so damaged?? makes me sad
when i look at the ends, they scream out to me. ='(
i have so many split ends, it hurts. it's like its splitting me too!
dahhhhhhh
should i cut it myself? or get it professionally done? cauz last time i got a professional to do it.. i came back with like a broom for hair =( . my hair was all straight all around, and that was just it. i looked like a broom. or a mop. seriously! so i ended up layering it myself. but i'm not a professional so i probably damaged my hair too. not that the "professional" i went to really did much for my split ends. sigh. why are you so bad!
i just found a strand of hair that has been split 6 times!! oh the horror
my hair is not really black. it's more of a really dark brown, and then at the tips where everything is sad and damaged, it's a light brown. boooo =( why is it so damaged?? makes me sad
So This is What it Feels Like to Live Life
So this is breathing air for the very first time
the Son of Man, He came here to give life
and in return He's asking for mine
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xlL698ao4Ak Yours to Take- Jimmy Needham
the Son of Man, He came here to give life
and in return He's asking for mine
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xlL698ao4Ak Yours to Take- Jimmy Needham
Late Nights with.... the doctor......
I was just reading up lots of sites on how to stop a cold & sore throat before it gets to the coughing stage....
and then i saw some symptoms that you should be aware of.. and if they happen to you, you should go see a doctor.
for the symptoms for children (i just read it cauz i was curious), one of them said,
ear pain.
I remember when i was younger that i would have ear pain in the middle of the night. it would wake me up from my sleep, and if it got really bad i would then go and wake my parents up. Twice this happened in my childhood, and they had to take me to the hospital in my pjs. I remember the process being very quick, and i just had to wait a bit for the doctors to get their medicine (probably antibiotics or something) to give me. I remember that during one of these trips, I was given a bed to lie in while waiting for the doctor. I was in a room with rows of beds that were separated with curtains. On the bed next to me, there was a woman giving birth. Now, I would have thought they do this in a seperate room.. but it was a while ago, so maybe things have changed since then. so i was freaked out. the lady kept screaming and crying and i felt so bad for her but i was also screaming too.
what's the point? i dont know. i just remembered my ear pain experiences...
and then i saw some symptoms that you should be aware of.. and if they happen to you, you should go see a doctor.
for the symptoms for children (i just read it cauz i was curious), one of them said,
ear pain.
I remember when i was younger that i would have ear pain in the middle of the night. it would wake me up from my sleep, and if it got really bad i would then go and wake my parents up. Twice this happened in my childhood, and they had to take me to the hospital in my pjs. I remember the process being very quick, and i just had to wait a bit for the doctors to get their medicine (probably antibiotics or something) to give me. I remember that during one of these trips, I was given a bed to lie in while waiting for the doctor. I was in a room with rows of beds that were separated with curtains. On the bed next to me, there was a woman giving birth. Now, I would have thought they do this in a seperate room.. but it was a while ago, so maybe things have changed since then. so i was freaked out. the lady kept screaming and crying and i felt so bad for her but i was also screaming too.
what's the point? i dont know. i just remembered my ear pain experiences...
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