I know, I know, I'm always late. Late for school, late for church sometimes, but I really do try.. for church anyway. School is... well.... let's just say I need motivation. Today, everyone was talking about how we have to be good students, and be ontime and stuff about self respect, teacher respect, and such and such. i know, i hear you, and i do care. but why does my bed have to be so comfortable? and why does school have to be so early? and no matter how much i tell myself i want to go to class because it'll be so fun and exciting, i can't get myself out of bed on time, and even if i do, i can't force myself to rush to leave the house on time. I'm stuck in two places: getting up, and then getting out. I can't wake up on time, and if i do, i move slower, so that if i slept in and woke up and rushed, i'd still leave the house at the same time as if i woke up earlier. sigh.
maybe my lack of motivation lies in these things:
- lack of excitement in class
- lack of people for me to talk to in class - why am i so antisocial? i think i've been drifting from people/society lately...
- subconsciously dont want to go to waterloo? lol i know, its silly. but possible......
- subconsciously don't want to go into engineering? do i even know what it is. and so many boys. and what if i can't handle all the work?
- i dont care about the consequences of being late. honestly. spend an hour maybe less in a room with desks at lunch time vs sitting on the floor against a dirty locker? being forced to do work vs procrastinating and then rushing later + stress? maybe detention is good for me.
how can i motivate myself to get up on time? negative reinforcements don't seem to work on me, i'm willing to pay the consequences, and they might even help me - but i can't rely on them lol + it looks bad on record.
positive reinforcements? sounds like training a dog... except that over time, the positive reinforcement (or reward) lessens from a treat to verbal praising, or petting.
to motivate myself to get up earlier in the morning -- perhaps i can reward myself with extremely delicious breakfast, that i can only eat at home. (so no on the run food, or i'll just shove it in my bag and eat it in the car/class)
what time should i wake up? 7:30? lol is that a bit TOO EARLY? maybe i can ask my dad to wake me up when he leaves for work... but its so early T_T
then that would mean having to sleep earlier............... lol.........which would change my entire day's schedule.
LOL............ who am i kidding..........................
okay really though...................maybe i'll sleep at... 11:30. so i'll have exactly 8 hours of sleep. regular people only need 6-7 right, so by having 8, it'll be good incase sometimes i sleep later to do work etc. maybe i'll try it out... starting.......... next week? LOL...... probably not tonight or tomorrow...
tonight - start and finish econ assignment
tomorrow night - finish rough copy, start and finish good copy of english essay. Go go go !
maybe my lack of motivation lies in these things:
- lack of excitement in class
- lack of people for me to talk to in class - why am i so antisocial? i think i've been drifting from people/society lately...
- subconsciously dont want to go to waterloo? lol i know, its silly. but possible......
- subconsciously don't want to go into engineering? do i even know what it is. and so many boys. and what if i can't handle all the work?
- i dont care about the consequences of being late. honestly. spend an hour maybe less in a room with desks at lunch time vs sitting on the floor against a dirty locker? being forced to do work vs procrastinating and then rushing later + stress? maybe detention is good for me.
how can i motivate myself to get up on time? negative reinforcements don't seem to work on me, i'm willing to pay the consequences, and they might even help me - but i can't rely on them lol + it looks bad on record.
positive reinforcements? sounds like training a dog... except that over time, the positive reinforcement (or reward) lessens from a treat to verbal praising, or petting.
to motivate myself to get up earlier in the morning -- perhaps i can reward myself with extremely delicious breakfast, that i can only eat at home. (so no on the run food, or i'll just shove it in my bag and eat it in the car/class)
what time should i wake up? 7:30? lol is that a bit TOO EARLY? maybe i can ask my dad to wake me up when he leaves for work... but its so early T_T
then that would mean having to sleep earlier............... lol.........which would change my entire day's schedule.
LOL............ who am i kidding..........................
okay really though...................maybe i'll sleep at... 11:30. so i'll have exactly 8 hours of sleep. regular people only need 6-7 right, so by having 8, it'll be good incase sometimes i sleep later to do work etc. maybe i'll try it out... starting.......... next week? LOL...... probably not tonight or tomorrow...
tonight - start and finish econ assignment
tomorrow night - finish rough copy, start and finish good copy of english essay. Go go go !
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