Today was a good day. I had an interview that went really well (in my opinion), failed a calculus quiz because I didn't study for it, learned how to do those problems, and caught up on readings. I also got to enjoy some old songs from my ipod that came up and brought back good memories. The day went by pretty slowly so I had ample time to catch up on my studies without feeling the pressure and therefore no stress.
Yesterday was a stressful day. I was trying to prepare myself for today and nothing was ready. I didn't know much about the company or position I was interviewing for, I only understood 1/3 of the material that was going to be on my calculus quiz and I had a load of readings to do if I wanted to stay caught up. The day went by really quickly and it felt like I had so many things to do that were just swarming up on me all at once.
So I panicked and stressed. I didn't feel like doing any work at all and wasn't in the mood to study. I couldn't focus and just wanted to relax. I talked to my friend and we prayed together. Man, prayer really does go a long way.
After we prayed, things were still the same. My tasks didn't magically disappear, nor did I suddenly understand everything that I was learning in calculus. I didn't feel any different either, in the sense that I still just wanted to relax and not do any work. So that's what I did. The only difference was that I felt calm and no longer panicked. I remembered the grand scheme of things; things were put back into perspective, the right priorities were straightened out.
All I did last night was prepare for my interview, read Job and sleep. I forgot about trying to study for my quiz, or trying to catch up on my other courses. I just let it all go. I remembered the value of getting rest and trusting in God's timing of everything. I was so caught up in trying to accomplish everything on my own power that I thought I'd be able to power through the night. But it doesn't work like that. I started my working day later because I decided to bring my friend to a free seminar about Christianity. I felt that it was an important and worthwhile thing for me to do. I then went to get groceries, which was also a necessity as I was running out of food. By the time I got home, I still had a good 4 hours that I could have used to study, but I just couldn't.
It's interesting because I thought that God would help me power through everything I put on my task list just because I took some time out to bring my friend to that course. But I was wrong. God had other plans for me. He knew that I was tired and needed rest. He knew that I was only going to burn myself out and that would have negative impacts on me. So I was reminded of His omnipotence and decided to forget about my calculus quiz, which was only worth 1%, and catch up on my courses later in the week.
Then today happened. Everything went well today, well aside from the quiz - but that doesn't even matter to me. One small quiz, worth 1% means nothing if I learn the material before the midterm, when it really does count. Small sacrifices are necessary sometimes, to reach the greater goal. I was so recharged today and full of energy. Even though I didn't read ahead for some of my courses I had today, I was still able to follow along and didn't fall asleep. I understood what the professors were saying and hence, do not need to read the textbook for that section anymore. The interview went well, and I got caught up.
I'm really blessed to have people in my life who remind me of God's power over time and encourage me to put more trust in Him. Sometimes I get so overwhelmed with the amount of tasks that I give myself, that I start getting buried in them and no longer see God. That's when I need to be pulled out of that pile, so I can slowly pick through and work on the tasks from a big-picture perspective, while still being able to see God. I'm learning about stacks and queues in my program analysis course. I need to live my life like a push-down stack, where the first task that comes in is the last task to be completed (FILO), and in between the first and last task, any urgent tasks that come up do not enter the stack at all, and no extra tasks are added into the stack until that urgent task has been completed. When urgent tasks are completed, then tasks continue to be added into the stack until there are no more tasks to push into the stack. Then, we start popping the tasks out one at a time, starting from the most recently added task. Then we work our way to the bottom of the stack, which is usually one of the first few tasks that were assigned.
I talked about a music group that I heard again today earlier in the post. You can listen to them here: H'sao my favourite song of theirs is this song: Sao. Also check this song out. They're a group originating from Chad, who I met and got to listen to live at a street festival in New Brunswick a few years back. I was really happy to have heard them again today because they're such a lively group and I love watching them dance and jam.
Job 29-31 today.
Yesterday was a stressful day. I was trying to prepare myself for today and nothing was ready. I didn't know much about the company or position I was interviewing for, I only understood 1/3 of the material that was going to be on my calculus quiz and I had a load of readings to do if I wanted to stay caught up. The day went by really quickly and it felt like I had so many things to do that were just swarming up on me all at once.
So I panicked and stressed. I didn't feel like doing any work at all and wasn't in the mood to study. I couldn't focus and just wanted to relax. I talked to my friend and we prayed together. Man, prayer really does go a long way.
After we prayed, things were still the same. My tasks didn't magically disappear, nor did I suddenly understand everything that I was learning in calculus. I didn't feel any different either, in the sense that I still just wanted to relax and not do any work. So that's what I did. The only difference was that I felt calm and no longer panicked. I remembered the grand scheme of things; things were put back into perspective, the right priorities were straightened out.
All I did last night was prepare for my interview, read Job and sleep. I forgot about trying to study for my quiz, or trying to catch up on my other courses. I just let it all go. I remembered the value of getting rest and trusting in God's timing of everything. I was so caught up in trying to accomplish everything on my own power that I thought I'd be able to power through the night. But it doesn't work like that. I started my working day later because I decided to bring my friend to a free seminar about Christianity. I felt that it was an important and worthwhile thing for me to do. I then went to get groceries, which was also a necessity as I was running out of food. By the time I got home, I still had a good 4 hours that I could have used to study, but I just couldn't.
It's interesting because I thought that God would help me power through everything I put on my task list just because I took some time out to bring my friend to that course. But I was wrong. God had other plans for me. He knew that I was tired and needed rest. He knew that I was only going to burn myself out and that would have negative impacts on me. So I was reminded of His omnipotence and decided to forget about my calculus quiz, which was only worth 1%, and catch up on my courses later in the week.
Then today happened. Everything went well today, well aside from the quiz - but that doesn't even matter to me. One small quiz, worth 1% means nothing if I learn the material before the midterm, when it really does count. Small sacrifices are necessary sometimes, to reach the greater goal. I was so recharged today and full of energy. Even though I didn't read ahead for some of my courses I had today, I was still able to follow along and didn't fall asleep. I understood what the professors were saying and hence, do not need to read the textbook for that section anymore. The interview went well, and I got caught up.
I'm really blessed to have people in my life who remind me of God's power over time and encourage me to put more trust in Him. Sometimes I get so overwhelmed with the amount of tasks that I give myself, that I start getting buried in them and no longer see God. That's when I need to be pulled out of that pile, so I can slowly pick through and work on the tasks from a big-picture perspective, while still being able to see God. I'm learning about stacks and queues in my program analysis course. I need to live my life like a push-down stack, where the first task that comes in is the last task to be completed (FILO), and in between the first and last task, any urgent tasks that come up do not enter the stack at all, and no extra tasks are added into the stack until that urgent task has been completed. When urgent tasks are completed, then tasks continue to be added into the stack until there are no more tasks to push into the stack. Then, we start popping the tasks out one at a time, starting from the most recently added task. Then we work our way to the bottom of the stack, which is usually one of the first few tasks that were assigned.
I talked about a music group that I heard again today earlier in the post. You can listen to them here: H'sao my favourite song of theirs is this song: Sao. Also check this song out. They're a group originating from Chad, who I met and got to listen to live at a street festival in New Brunswick a few years back. I was really happy to have heard them again today because they're such a lively group and I love watching them dance and jam.
Job 29-31 today.
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