Galatians 6:2 says, "Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ. (NIV)
This is the verse of the day today, from BibleGateway.com.
It's interesting this verse was the verse of the day. Lately, I've been struggling with people coming and going out of my life. I know that in some ways, this is normal, and inevitable. You move to a different school. You go out of town. You move to another country. You join the army. Or perhaps there are other reasons why people leave. Perhaps you got into a fight and there was too much that built up to it that broke the friendship. Perhaps your parents forbade you to be friends.
Perhaps it was just a one sided relationship. Perhaps the person on the other end just didn't feel the same way, or they got bored, or thought you weren't worth it. Maybe they found other friends. Maybe they moved on in life and didn't look back to see if you followed. My friend once told me that, "People change and forget to tell you". I think she's right about that. It's a sad truth that I have come to face.
Sometimes I feel like I pour so much of my time, thought, energy, and effort to get to know someone. To keep a friendship going takes up a lot of everything. Maybe I'm just not very perceptive in the way others see me. I like to think that no matter how poorly someone can treat you at any point in time, they had a reason to do so (whether it be a legit reason). I don't believe that anyone would go out of their way just to hurt someone unless someone hurt them first.
A part of me feels so lost and confused at the realization that some people just don't need me or want to continue having a friendship with me. Sometimes I wonder how people can just drop another person. Just like that. It's discouraging when I'm always the one seeking out the other. It's sad to think that I see a sliver of hope when I am contacted, even if just to help them. I think what hurts the most is just not knowing why or what happened. Did I do something wrong? I would understand.
Sometimes people drift away, but it's gradual. You used to talk often. Then occasionally, then rarely, and then maybe once in a blue moon. But that's not what happened.
Maybe I'm too burdened. Maybe I've taken on too much than I can handle. Maybe the people that I thought would make good friends didn't feel the same way, or didn't think it was worth carrying my burdens. Whatever it is, I need to move on and stop moping over this. As much as I want to fulfill this verse, it isn't happening if it's not being reciprocated, and I'm wasting my efforts that could have been more useful to someone else. There are other people out there in this moment in time that are better suited for me. Maybe they will know how to carry my burdens and I will know how to carry theirs as well.
A good friend of mine told me to cut the fat. He told me that the people who don't do me any good aren't people that are worth pursuing. These kinds of relationships, the kind that takes without giving back are like leeches. They take a lot, and then leave you feeling terrible. I think he's right. It's like bread. It has an expiry date. The bread is still edible a few days after the expiry date and won't do you harm, but once you leave it out for so long that it starts growing mold, it is no longer healthy, rather harmful. A friendship can start out really well. Some friendships seem to have an expiry date on them, but if you pursue the relationship, it can be saved. But some friendships just dwindle and after a certain amount of time of trying to save it, if the other person doesn't change or reciprocate, then it's time to throw out the bread before it becomes deadly.
That's what I need to do. I will still be there for them if they ever need me, or decide to be my friend again. But in the mean time, there is no point in being sad, and there is no point in wasting effort to try and rebuild what was lost.
Don't worry, this post isn't because I'm feeling useless or sad. This is just helpful for me to put this behind. A physical(ish) way for me to leave behind any wavering thoughts of wasting more effort. I'm not emo, I know that I'm unworthy of God's grace, yet He still loves me and wants to have a relationship with me. I know that He knows me best, and I trust in His judgement for the people He brings and takes away from me.
You Know Me - George Huff
This is the verse of the day today, from BibleGateway.com.
It's interesting this verse was the verse of the day. Lately, I've been struggling with people coming and going out of my life. I know that in some ways, this is normal, and inevitable. You move to a different school. You go out of town. You move to another country. You join the army. Or perhaps there are other reasons why people leave. Perhaps you got into a fight and there was too much that built up to it that broke the friendship. Perhaps your parents forbade you to be friends.
Perhaps it was just a one sided relationship. Perhaps the person on the other end just didn't feel the same way, or they got bored, or thought you weren't worth it. Maybe they found other friends. Maybe they moved on in life and didn't look back to see if you followed. My friend once told me that, "People change and forget to tell you". I think she's right about that. It's a sad truth that I have come to face.
Sometimes I feel like I pour so much of my time, thought, energy, and effort to get to know someone. To keep a friendship going takes up a lot of everything. Maybe I'm just not very perceptive in the way others see me. I like to think that no matter how poorly someone can treat you at any point in time, they had a reason to do so (whether it be a legit reason). I don't believe that anyone would go out of their way just to hurt someone unless someone hurt them first.
A part of me feels so lost and confused at the realization that some people just don't need me or want to continue having a friendship with me. Sometimes I wonder how people can just drop another person. Just like that. It's discouraging when I'm always the one seeking out the other. It's sad to think that I see a sliver of hope when I am contacted, even if just to help them. I think what hurts the most is just not knowing why or what happened. Did I do something wrong? I would understand.
Sometimes people drift away, but it's gradual. You used to talk often. Then occasionally, then rarely, and then maybe once in a blue moon. But that's not what happened.
Maybe I'm too burdened. Maybe I've taken on too much than I can handle. Maybe the people that I thought would make good friends didn't feel the same way, or didn't think it was worth carrying my burdens. Whatever it is, I need to move on and stop moping over this. As much as I want to fulfill this verse, it isn't happening if it's not being reciprocated, and I'm wasting my efforts that could have been more useful to someone else. There are other people out there in this moment in time that are better suited for me. Maybe they will know how to carry my burdens and I will know how to carry theirs as well.
A good friend of mine told me to cut the fat. He told me that the people who don't do me any good aren't people that are worth pursuing. These kinds of relationships, the kind that takes without giving back are like leeches. They take a lot, and then leave you feeling terrible. I think he's right. It's like bread. It has an expiry date. The bread is still edible a few days after the expiry date and won't do you harm, but once you leave it out for so long that it starts growing mold, it is no longer healthy, rather harmful. A friendship can start out really well. Some friendships seem to have an expiry date on them, but if you pursue the relationship, it can be saved. But some friendships just dwindle and after a certain amount of time of trying to save it, if the other person doesn't change or reciprocate, then it's time to throw out the bread before it becomes deadly.
That's what I need to do. I will still be there for them if they ever need me, or decide to be my friend again. But in the mean time, there is no point in being sad, and there is no point in wasting effort to try and rebuild what was lost.
Don't worry, this post isn't because I'm feeling useless or sad. This is just helpful for me to put this behind. A physical(ish) way for me to leave behind any wavering thoughts of wasting more effort. I'm not emo, I know that I'm unworthy of God's grace, yet He still loves me and wants to have a relationship with me. I know that He knows me best, and I trust in His judgement for the people He brings and takes away from me.
You Know Me - George Huff
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