they're after me?

do you ever get that feeling like someone’s after you? like say you hear sirens and you think that the cops are after you. even if you haven’t stolen anything. or done anything against the law.

i don’t know why, but i always feel like they’re after me. or i’m the one they want. or i’m in trouble. or something bad. why?

im in my res room… and every time someone walks by, i stop typing. i move about quietly, pretending that i’m not here. my back stiffens when i hear a walkie talkie or radio. i feel like im afraid that they’ll discover something about me that is against the rules or something and kick me out. why am i so paranoid?

i feel like a hermit in my room all the time. but i don’t know where everyone else is. and i also don’t really want to mingle. im feeling explosive.. i think it was the oily breakfast.

i hope i’ll be able to go grocery shopping. i need to get some water, yogurt, snacks and fruits. i eat more than just 3 meals a day.. at the appointed times.. =/ i wonder if i can grab extra (like a muffin or something) and save it for later? is that stealing? the food’s buffet style, but you can only go through the food area once. so you gotta grab everything you want before you sit down or you’ll lose that food.