I am not somebody who gives up easily. I always try my best and keep going at it until something happens. I am usually an optimistic person, always hoping that the best will happen, although I entertain what the worst thing could happen, and in that way, I "prepare" myself (mentally) for the worst.
Lately, I have not been feeling that way. I have 5 midterms coming up next week and I have been studying for many many hours on end this past week. I don't have much time left to study and learn what I need to know before my midterms... They are approaching much too soon and I fear that I am not ready for them. I feel like giving up.
But something inside me knows that I don't let myself give up. Even if I say to myself that I'm going to stop and just let it be, I know that tomorrow I will go out there again and keep trying.
Ugh. Why do I do this to myself? Put myself through so much stress and torture when I could just not care, and give up. I feel like the fact that I don't like leaving things unfinished and the fact that I like challenges causes me so much stress. But it will be worth it in the end - that is what I always tell myself.
I finished reading Joel yesterday. I haven't posted for two days. Been busy trying to catch up with school work and trying to fit in activities that will "balance" my life out so I'm not depressed. Today I will read Amos 1.
Lately, I have not been feeling that way. I have 5 midterms coming up next week and I have been studying for many many hours on end this past week. I don't have much time left to study and learn what I need to know before my midterms... They are approaching much too soon and I fear that I am not ready for them. I feel like giving up.
But something inside me knows that I don't let myself give up. Even if I say to myself that I'm going to stop and just let it be, I know that tomorrow I will go out there again and keep trying.
Ugh. Why do I do this to myself? Put myself through so much stress and torture when I could just not care, and give up. I feel like the fact that I don't like leaving things unfinished and the fact that I like challenges causes me so much stress. But it will be worth it in the end - that is what I always tell myself.
I finished reading Joel yesterday. I haven't posted for two days. Been busy trying to catch up with school work and trying to fit in activities that will "balance" my life out so I'm not depressed. Today I will read Amos 1.
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