So tomorrow is [unofficially] the last day of school. Then I have one week of exams, and then one week off, prom, then one day of school to check marks and whatnot.
How does it feel to finally graduate?
- I was feeling good, happy that I'm finally moving on.
-This whole week, I have been feeling like it's the best time to skip classes, since we aren't doing anything anyway... but then I remembered that I wouldn't be seeing these people, these teachers, being in this environment ever again. I mean, I wouldn't care if I knew I would be coming back again, but at the same time... all these memories that I've built up here for four years seem like a lot now.
- This whole time I've been thinking about how insignificant my life in high school has been, since it doesn't really seem like I accomplished much here - but I can blame myself for being such an introvert.
Should I go to school tomorrow?
- Yes, we are getting yearbooks and I paid for it.
- However, the better question to ask would be am I staying all day......
and the answer to that is a big probable no.
why?
because my dad is working from home tomorrow, my sister is finally home, and my mom will be home too. This will be my one chance at eating lunch with them and hanging out with the fam while all the other kids are at school, playing outside in the hot weather.
What about signing yearbooks?
- Well... I honestly really don't care if I get mine signed or not. It's not a big deal to me. If I really wanted to continue friendships with any of these people that I've met this year then I would. Signing a yearbook is just like a way to come to terms with the fact that you won't ever see these people again. Maybe I'm wrong, but that's how part of me feels. Why do I want to go through all that trouble just to get a warm fuzzy feeling 20 years from now when I open my yearbook?
- The other part of me tells me that when I have kids, and they go through my yearbook, do I really want them to ask, " Mommy, why didn't anyone sign your yearbook? Were you a loner?" lol that's kind of sad. Perhaps I'll show them my previous years' yearbooks and they can be satisfied with those. Also, I have met some pretty cool people this year. I'm not sure what signing yearbooks will do though. haha. maybe help me remember what I was like, and what they were like when we were high school kids. mmmhmm.
So I'm stuck. Stuck between wanting to go to school and just stay and enjoy, and hang out with people "for the last time" and just going to lunch and hanging out with the fam on a school day, something I've never gotten to do in my 12 years of school life. Since I'll be moving away starting July and won't be back [longterm] for another 5 years, I'd probably choose my family. I'm sorry friends. I'll still see you during exams, after exams, prom, and you can sign my yearbook or get yours signed by me sometime during any of those events. I feel like I'm fleeing right after school ends. lol . which is kind of true in a way. I won't be able to see anyone in person [and internet video calls don't count] for a long time. sigh. I should have done this last summer! But it's all good. Anyway, I've started on two longer blogs.. that I'll hopefully be able to post up sometime within the next two to three weeks. =)
How does it feel to finally graduate?
- I was feeling good, happy that I'm finally moving on.
-This whole week, I have been feeling like it's the best time to skip classes, since we aren't doing anything anyway... but then I remembered that I wouldn't be seeing these people, these teachers, being in this environment ever again. I mean, I wouldn't care if I knew I would be coming back again, but at the same time... all these memories that I've built up here for four years seem like a lot now.
- This whole time I've been thinking about how insignificant my life in high school has been, since it doesn't really seem like I accomplished much here - but I can blame myself for being such an introvert.
Should I go to school tomorrow?
- Yes, we are getting yearbooks and I paid for it.
- However, the better question to ask would be am I staying all day......
and the answer to that is a big probable no.
why?
because my dad is working from home tomorrow, my sister is finally home, and my mom will be home too. This will be my one chance at eating lunch with them and hanging out with the fam while all the other kids are at school, playing outside in the hot weather.
What about signing yearbooks?
- Well... I honestly really don't care if I get mine signed or not. It's not a big deal to me. If I really wanted to continue friendships with any of these people that I've met this year then I would. Signing a yearbook is just like a way to come to terms with the fact that you won't ever see these people again. Maybe I'm wrong, but that's how part of me feels. Why do I want to go through all that trouble just to get a warm fuzzy feeling 20 years from now when I open my yearbook?
- The other part of me tells me that when I have kids, and they go through my yearbook, do I really want them to ask, " Mommy, why didn't anyone sign your yearbook? Were you a loner?" lol that's kind of sad. Perhaps I'll show them my previous years' yearbooks and they can be satisfied with those. Also, I have met some pretty cool people this year. I'm not sure what signing yearbooks will do though. haha. maybe help me remember what I was like, and what they were like when we were high school kids. mmmhmm.
So I'm stuck. Stuck between wanting to go to school and just stay and enjoy, and hang out with people "for the last time" and just going to lunch and hanging out with the fam on a school day, something I've never gotten to do in my 12 years of school life. Since I'll be moving away starting July and won't be back [longterm] for another 5 years, I'd probably choose my family. I'm sorry friends. I'll still see you during exams, after exams, prom, and you can sign my yearbook or get yours signed by me sometime during any of those events. I feel like I'm fleeing right after school ends. lol . which is kind of true in a way. I won't be able to see anyone in person [and internet video calls don't count] for a long time. sigh. I should have done this last summer! But it's all good. Anyway, I've started on two longer blogs.. that I'll hopefully be able to post up sometime within the next two to three weeks. =)
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