When it has been such a long period of time since you have last spoken or met up with someone who you were once close to, it is both a time filled with joy and sadness - for me anyway.
For me, I see them and I am happy to see that they are doing well, and that they have learned and grown so much since the last time I saw them. But I am also filled with a twinge of sadness because I feel like I am unable to reconnect with them in such a way that leaves both of us feeling satisfied and reaffirmed in our friendship.
I want to share with them about the many changes in my life since that time we said our goodbyes. I want to watch their eyes light up when they tell me of their exciting journeys and adventures they have had. I want to know all about where they are headed now, and how God has been working through them. I want to tell them about what God has also been doing in my life; to share our stories and to grow together. I want to be able to confidently tell myself that we are still friends because of the time we spent catching each other up.
But I couldn't think of a thoughtful, meaningful thing to say when I saw them. It was only for a short period of time, which is why I was reluctant to say too much. Instead, I'm the type of person that will end up doing small talk - which also bugs me because why, why would I do small talk when there was so much more depth to our relationship, so many more meaningful things I could have said? But then I keep thinking to myself that I wouldn't be able to finish catching them up anyway, or I wouldn't have time to let them catch me up either, so what was the point????? I guess the satisfaction of just being able to see their faces already makes me happier, but then when I leave again, I think back and realize that we barely exchanged any meaningful words, and there was basically no point to our short meeting.
I am the kind of person who needs to meet up, sit down, and talk. I need that one on one, or two on one time with just those people, to be able to fully engage myself in conversation and deep thought. But time is hard to find, especially the more people there are. I just wish that I could have conveyed that I still care and want to become close to them again, despite the physical distance and time barriers.
On the bright side, I did get to spend time with one of my closest friends this time, and I am so glad that the timing worked out. I can only continue to pray for God to look after my friends and then keep waiting for an opportunity to meet up with my dear friends so that we can share in what we've been up to!
For me, I see them and I am happy to see that they are doing well, and that they have learned and grown so much since the last time I saw them. But I am also filled with a twinge of sadness because I feel like I am unable to reconnect with them in such a way that leaves both of us feeling satisfied and reaffirmed in our friendship.
I want to share with them about the many changes in my life since that time we said our goodbyes. I want to watch their eyes light up when they tell me of their exciting journeys and adventures they have had. I want to know all about where they are headed now, and how God has been working through them. I want to tell them about what God has also been doing in my life; to share our stories and to grow together. I want to be able to confidently tell myself that we are still friends because of the time we spent catching each other up.
But I couldn't think of a thoughtful, meaningful thing to say when I saw them. It was only for a short period of time, which is why I was reluctant to say too much. Instead, I'm the type of person that will end up doing small talk - which also bugs me because why, why would I do small talk when there was so much more depth to our relationship, so many more meaningful things I could have said? But then I keep thinking to myself that I wouldn't be able to finish catching them up anyway, or I wouldn't have time to let them catch me up either, so what was the point????? I guess the satisfaction of just being able to see their faces already makes me happier, but then when I leave again, I think back and realize that we barely exchanged any meaningful words, and there was basically no point to our short meeting.
I am the kind of person who needs to meet up, sit down, and talk. I need that one on one, or two on one time with just those people, to be able to fully engage myself in conversation and deep thought. But time is hard to find, especially the more people there are. I just wish that I could have conveyed that I still care and want to become close to them again, despite the physical distance and time barriers.
On the bright side, I did get to spend time with one of my closest friends this time, and I am so glad that the timing worked out. I can only continue to pray for God to look after my friends and then keep waiting for an opportunity to meet up with my dear friends so that we can share in what we've been up to!
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