//Angry nerd rant

My “friend” from my class is always asking to see my grades for work that we get back. I mean, it’s my own choice whether or not I want to show you. Stop flashing your 100% in my face, and trying to guess what marks I got. ugh. I can’t believe I have to HIDE from you. Just so I can avoid you seeing my mark. ugh this is stupid. T_T . I guess she wasn’t paying attention when the undergrad chair was saying that our marks were private, and no one but whoever did the work had permission to see it - legally. fricken leave me alone. stop asking. stop trying to compare so that you know you’re better than me. I don’t care how you’re doing. Why would I give you a reason to put me down and I don’t want to know your mark - because as stupid as it is, it does make me feel stupid knowing that I did a whole lot worse than you. so just let it go if I tell you that I don’t want to show you. Stop trying to guess and say stupid things like, “Oh, I guess you didn’t get perfect.”. shut up. even if i did get perfect I wouldn’t shove it in your face. 

i guess i should’ve known that university was going to be competitive. everyone has their own little secrets and things they do to try and get ahead. don’t get me wrong, i try and keep ahead as well. I do things when they are assigned; there is no such thing as procrastination anymore (unless it’s for research assignments that i hate doing), there is only free time to do other things after all my work is done. For scheduled times where i know i will be out at fellowship, church, or at small group, i finish my work ahead of time, or plan out when i’m going to do it. I’m trying to stay on top of my tasks, trying to improve my grades, trying not to fail. ugh. i just hate how school now seems like such a big competition. Everybody is a keener, and if you thought you were a keener in high school, well, not anymore. man. these people are crazy. and i’m becoming one of them.