empty stomach

i've' had this several times to know...

that after i use the toilet, and i empty my body of solid waste, i sometimes feel empty. other times, i can feel really cold, and start shaking..... then i have a sense of dread, and then my tummy goes cold, and then i get this feeling where i'm about to barf, except there's no salivating..... and then tummy pain comes.... and i cant figure out whether i should lie down, sit, or stand - because moving hurts and not moving hurts too. so idk. sometimes it gets like this because there's more stuff to leave me, but sometimes i dont know why. i feel weak. and i feel cold...... and this usually occurs in the middle of the night.. so i'm the only one awake.......

i think that when i go see the doctor for my check up next week, i'll tell him about my stabbing pain.... but i'll ask him not to tell anyone - i'm old enough for confidentiality now right? so maybe noone has to know other than me and him. but if i need meds or insurance or something then i guess my dad would have to know. and then my mom. and then my sister........ D= . but i shouldn't think so far ahead, when i dont even know the facts.......

maybe im just tripping myself out. maybe i'm just thinking about this too much that my body is reacting in a way that makes me "feel" what isn't really there. you know? like sometimes you see soemthing and you barf. or you hear something and you feel queasy. something like that.